Tom Smith: Secret speech

Numb, Leo wiped the blood on his trousers, remarking:

– Before we go I’d like a moment to check the church.

Nikolai accepted the proposal at face value.

– A perfectionist, that’s good. But hurry up. Tonight we get drunk. You haven’t had a drink in two months! You’ve been living like a monk!

Nikolai laughed at his own joke, patting Leo on the back before heading out. Alone, Leo walked to the displaced stone altar, staring into the hole. Caught between the side of the trunk and the earth wall there was a single sheet of paper. He reached down, picking it up. It was a page of music. His eyes ran across the notes. Deciding that it would be better not to know what had been lost, he raised the sheet above the flame of a nearby candle, watching the paper turn black.

Manager of a small academic printing press, Suren Moskvin had become renowned for producing textbooks of the poorest quality, using ink that smeared and the thinnest paper, all held together with a glue spine that began to shed pages within hours of opening. It wasn’t that he was lazy or incompetent. Far from it, he’d start work early in the morning and finish late at night. The reason the books were so shabby was due to the raw materials allotted by the State. While the content of academic publications was carefully monitored, they were not a resource priority. Locked into a quota system, Suren was forced to produce a large number of books from the lowest grade of paper in the shortest period of time. The equation never changed and he was at its mercy, acutely embarrassed that his reputation had sunk so low. There were jokes-with ink-stained fingers, students and teachers quipped that Moskvin’s books always stayed with you. Ridiculed, he’d been finding it difficult getting out of bed. He wasn’t eating properly. He was drinking throughout the day, bottles stashed in drawers, behind bookshelves. Aged fifty-five, he’d discovered something new about himself: he didn’t have the stomach for public humiliation.

Inspecting the Linotype printing machines, brooding over his failures, he noticed a young man standing at the door. Suren addressed him defensively:

– Yes? What is it? It’s not normal to stand there unannounced.

The man stepped forward, in typical student attire, a long coat and a cheap black scarf. He was holding a book, outstretched. Suren snatched it from his hands, bracing himself for more complaints. He glanced at the cover: Lenin’s The State and Revolution. They’d printed a new volume only last week, distributed a day or so ago, and this man, it would seem, was the first to spot something amiss. A mistake in a seminal work was a grave matter: during Stalin’s rule it would be enough to warrant arrest. The student leaned forward and opened the book, flicking to the front. Printed on the title page was a black-and-white photo. The student commented:

– The text at the bottom says it’s a photo of Lenin but… as you can see…

The photo was of a man who looked nothing like Lenin, a man standing against a wall, a stark white wall. His hair was wild. His eyes were wild.

Suren slammed the book shut and turned to the student:

– You think I could have printed one thousand copies of this book with the wrong photo! Who are you! What is your name! Why are you doing this? My problems are due to the limits of my materials, not carelessness!

Pushed back, the book jabbed at his chest, the scarf around the student’s neck came loose, revealing the edge of a tattoo. The sight made Suren pause. A tattoo was incongruous with the otherwise typical appearance of a student. No one, except the vory, the professional criminals, would mark their skin in such a way.

With the impetus taken out of Suren’s indignation, the man exploited his hesitation and hurried out. Halfheartedly, Suren followed, still holding the book, watching the mysterious figure disappear into the night. Uneasy, he shut the door, locking it. Something bothered him: that photograph. He took out his spectacles, opened the book, and scrutinized the face a little more closely: those terrified eyes. Like a ghost ship slowly emerging from dense sea fog, the identity of the man appeared to him. His face was familiar. His hair and eyes were wild because he’d been arrested and dragged from his bed. Suren recognized the photograph because he had taken it.

Suren hadn’t always run a printing press. Previously, he’d been employed by the MGB. Twenty years of loyal service, his career with the secret police had spanned longer than many of his superiors. Fulfilling a variety of banal tasks-cleaning cells, photographing prisoners-his low rank had been an asset and he’d been savvy enough not to push for more responsibility, never getting noticed, evading the cyclical purges of the upper echelons. Difficult things had been demanded of him. He’d done his duty unswervingly. Back then he’d been a man to be feared. No one made jokes about him. They wouldn’t have dared. Ill health had forced him to retire. Though well remunerated and comfortable, he’d found idleness impossible. Lying in bed with no purpose to his day, his mind had wandered, drifting over the past, remembering faces like the one now stuck into this book. The solution was to remain busy, appointments and meetings. He needed an occupation. He didn’t want to reminisce.

Closing the book, he slipped the volume into his pocket. Why was this happening today? It couldn’t be mere coincidence. Despite his failure to produce a book or journal of any quality, he’d unexpectedly been asked to publish an important State document. He hadn’t been told the nature of the document. However, the prestige of the assignment meant high-quality resources-good paper and ink. Finally he’d been given the opportunity to produce something he could be proud of. They were to deliver the document this evening. And someone with a grudge was trying to undermine him just as his fortunes were about to change.

He left the factory floor, hurrying to his office, carefully smoothing his wispy gray hair to the side. He was wearing his best suit-he only had two, one for everyday use and one for special occasions. This was a special occasion. He hadn’t needed help getting out of bed today. He’d been awake before his wife. He’d shaved, humming. He’d eaten a full breakfast, his first for weeks. Arriving at the factory early, he’d taken the bottle of vodka from his drawer and poured it down the sink before spending the day cleaning, mopping, dusting-wiping away the flecks of grease from the Linotype machines. His sons, both university students, had paid him a visit, impressed by the transformation. Suren reminded them that it was a matter of principle to keep the workplace spotless. The workplace was where a person took their identity and sense of self. They’d kissed him good-bye, wishing him luck with the enigmatic new commission. At last, after the many years of secrecy and the recent years of failure, they had reason to be proud of him.

He checked his watch. It was seven in the evening. They’d be here any minute. He should forget about the stranger and photograph, it wasn’t important. He couldn’t let him distract him. Suddenly he wished he hadn’t poured the vodka away. A drink would’ve calmed him. Then again, they might have smelled it on his breath. Better not to have any, better to be nervous-it showed he took the job seriously. Suren reached for the bottle of kvass. A nonalcoholic rye bread brew: it would have to do.

In his haste, his coordination shaky from alcohol withdrawal, he upended a tray of steel letter molds. The tray fell from the desk, emptying its contents, the individual letters scattering across the stone floor.