M Sellars - Never Burn A Witch

The angry, high-pitched cry of a Stryker saw meeting bone neatly pierced the roaring in my ears. Physical reality spun uncontrollably into formless void as I joined with the young woman on the metal table. Her recent pain was no longer confined solely to somewhere in the back of my thoughts.

Everywhere in my mind, I heard her screaming.

My mouth tastes tinny.

Metallic.

Electric.

Blistered.

Raw.

My chest is shrieking in protest. I can feel my flesh being smoothly peeled back, as though I am being violently wrenched inside out. With each passing second, I become aware of more nerve endings being delivered naked and screaming into the cold antiseptic air.

“Why is she doing that?” a weeping feminine voice asks.

I search through slitted eyes while gritting my teeth against the pain.

I try to turn and suddenly I find myself slowly spinning.

Twisting lazily on an unfelt breeze.

Floating.

“Why is she doing that to me?” the voice asks again.

“Where are you?” I ask as I continue to turn lethargically in a formless void.

I can see no one.

I can see nothing.

“Who are you?” I call out through my agony.

“Why is she cutting me like that?” The voice is beyond weeping. She is sobbing now. Her words break off in hard bewildered pieces between each breath, tumbling forth and shattering in my ears, “Haven’t I been through enough?”

A violent sensation, making agony seem a mere discomfort, bites into my side, gnashing at my bones with countless glittering metal teeth.

My body stiffens.

A tortured cry fills the void.

An angry crimson wail explodes inside my skull.

I’m falling.

Spiraling downward.

Faster.

Faster.

I crash into nothing and splinter into a thousand obsidian shards reflecting the inky darkness. Absorbing and smothering all that is light.

“Mister Gant?” Doctor Sanders’ voice mimics itself in a grotesque parody of speech, casually piercing the ethereal veil. “Did you want to come closer?”

Gradually, I open my eyes.

The black formless void still envelops me.

I can’t see.

Where am I?

Who am I?

Something is tightly stretched across my mouth.

Between my teeth.

It bites into the corners of my lips, abrading them roughly before continuing its constriction around my head.

My mouth tastes of plastic.

Of sweat.

Of blood.

I cannot speak.

I cannot scream.

I can only cry.

“Mister Gant?”

I’m nude.

I’m cold.

I cannot move.

My arms are extended above me, and something rigidly encircles my wrists. I can feel my flesh being torn. I can feel the trickles of my own blood running along my skin from the wounds, mixing with sweat and forming rivulets from the headwaters of my pain.

My mind is numbed by the agony. My muscles are stretched beyond their limits.

Something cold and hard cinches my ankles.

It pulls stiffly downward, unyielding.

The stress threatens to tear me in half.

Sharp spasms rack the muscles along my back, and I arch against it. Bucking against my bonds as best I can.

If it weren’t for the pain, I would swear I was already dead.

A soft-edged whimper escapes my throat.

Hoarse but distinctly feminine.

Who am I?

I cannot remember.

I only know that I am not who I am supposed to be.

It’s dark.

I can’t see.

Where am I?

Who am I?

“Holy fuckin’ shit! Goddammit!” Ben’s voice was echoing distantly. “He’s done this before and the last time his friggin’ heart stopped.”

Doctor Sanders’ voice followed thickly, her words ricocheting from his. “What do you mean his heart stopped?”

“I mean it just fuckin’ stopped! He almost died.”

“Calm down, Storm! He still has a pulse. Mister Gant? Mister Gant, can you hear me?”

My ears discern the mournful squeal of rusted hinges.

I’ve been in the darkness for what seems an eternity.

A faint light filters in from above, and it is almost blinding.

How long have I been here?

I strain to lift my head.

My ears have grown accustomed to the unbroken silence, and the mechanical snap of a light switch comes like a gunshot.

I can even hear the hum of the electricity as it arcs along the contacts.

A bare incandescent bulb ignites above me, casting harsh streams of light.

I wrench my head away, regretting the act the moment the pain it brings bludgeons me. I blink. I regret that too.

Even blinking hurts.

Slowly, biting back the stabs of misery, I raise my face once again to look around.

I peer cautiously through the stringy mats of my long, flame red hair as it hangs in front of my face, and I try to focus on my surroundings.

A rough concrete wall, grey and pitted with age, confronts me. A large crucifix adorns its otherwise blank emptiness. Countless unlit white candles of all shapes and sizes cover a small wooden table before the shrine.

I am in what appears to be a basement.

Biting hard on the gag in my mouth, I tilt my head farther back, squinting my eyes against the harsh light.

Black iron shackles encompass my scraped, blood crusted wrists. Connected by a heavy chain, they are affixed securely above.

I am hanging from a thick beam.

I am suspended from the rafters.

The small amount of strength I mustered is fleeting at best, and my head tilts back forward of its own accord, bringing my chin to heavily meet my chest.

Breasts.

I am a woman.

Something sequestered in the nether regions of my mind tells me that this isn’t right. I am not supposed to be a woman. Or am I?

I have no idea who I AM supposed to be.

Slow, deliberate thudding partnered with the doleful cry of creaking wood meets my ears and chases my latest revelation away from immediacy-along with its still unanswered questions.

Someone is coming.

HE is coming.

Unfettered, acidic terror rips outward from my abdomen and singes me.

Something warm begins to run down my inner thighs and splatters wetly to the floor.

I have no control as my bladder releases.

I begin to cry.

A strangely familiar feminine voice stretches itself past me in a textbook example of Doppler distortion. “Help me get him on the free table over there.”

“Nooooooooooooo!” My scream is muffled by the soggy, biting fabric in my mouth.

A mechanical sound reaches me, felt as well as heard.

Tick, tick… Click!

Tick, tick… Click!

Tick, tick, tick… Click!

My body tenses as I feel my shoulders slowly and simultaneously ripped from their sockets. Something is pulling down against my ankles and my legs are straining to remain joined with the rest of my body.

The metallic click of a gear ratcheting reverberates again.

Tick, tick. Click!

Tick! Clunk!

“Nooooooooooooo.” My cry is no more than a meek whimper.

Muscles and tendons are tearing. Various spots along my upper back spasm and snap like broken rubber bands. White-hot projectiles of torment race through my nervous system at a quickening pace.

Bursting like bullets from my chest, they only turn to re-enter and retrace every inch over and over again.

It is more than I can stand.

As the light begins to fade, I can see his shadow on the floor in front of me, large and foreboding. I can barely hear muffled words.

Something about proof of my crimes.

Something about proof of my heresy.

Something about evidence to validate my “confession.” Something about begging the forgiveness of God.

Darkness overwhelms me.

A deep voice echoes to me. Someone I should know. A name comes to mind. Ben. “Come on, white man, you sonofabitch! Don’t you die on me!”