M Sellars: Love Is The Bond

There was no reply from the other end, but I could still hear background noise, so I knew she hadn’t hung up.

“Hello?” I said.

“Yes, I’m here,” the assistant replied. “I’m sorry. Where did you say you were calling from again?”

“Saint Louis, Missouri, why?”

“Just curious. Doctor Rieth received a call a year or so back from a police officer in South Carolina regarding a murder investigation.”

My curiosity was immediately piqued. “Really? Do you remember any of the details?”

“No,” she replied. “And, honestly, I really shouldn’t have said anything.”

“That’s okay, I won’t tell,” I replied half jokingly then moved on rather than risk alienating her. “Is there any way I can reach Doctor Rieth? It’s very important.”

“I’m afraid not,” she replied. “She is scheduled to return the Monday after the holiday however.”

I wasn’t excited about the wait, but it was just that time of year, so there was little I could do. I went ahead and asked, “Do you think it would be possible for me to leave a message for the doctor then?”

“Yes sir, I can certainly do that,” she answered. “Which police department are you with again?”

“I’m actually an independent consultant,” I explained then took the truth and wrapped it into an interwoven pretzel before relaying it to her. “I’m currently working with the Greater Saint Louis Major Case Squad.”

It wasn’t a complete lie, but I hoped that the doctor didn’t elect to verify my story because I was betting no one would be willing to back me up. Right now I was apparently persona non grata, but even when I was actually working with them, my capacity wasn’t exactly what one could call official.

I finished giving her my contact information and bid her a pleasant afternoon before hanging up and pondering what the young woman had just let slip. Hopefully, if and when Doctor Rieth returned my call, she would be willing to share a bit more about what she had consulted on in South Carolina.

I picked up a pen and jotted a quick note about it in a steno pad I had been using for keeping track of my research. I heard the dogs barking outside and wondered for a moment if they were wanting back in the house. I started to get up, but they quieted down before I could get completely out of my seat, so I figured it must be a taunting squirrel or simply a passerby. When I settled back into the chair, however, a familiar prickling sensation crawled across the back of my neck as I felt my hair pivoting at the roots.

I reached up and rubbed the offending spot as I looked around the room. I couldn’t imagine a reason for the brief attack of shivers. It faded quickly so I tried to put it out of my mind.

Returning to the materials I had at hand, I shuffled through the stack of books on my desk and withdrew another one, heavily laden with bookmarks protruding from the end, and flipped it open to the copyright page. I was just about to begin typing in the publisher’s website address in search of contact information for the author when I heard the doorbell ring.

Now I had my answer as to why the dogs had been barking.

I knew Felicity was downstairs in her darkroom and probably wouldn’t be able to answer it. In reality, most of her work these days was digital and didn’t require the somewhat antiquated processes of chemicals and light sensitive papers. However, I had the impression that my wife was finding the familiarity and closeness of her analog workspace a comfort in the wake of her recent experience. Put simply, she was hiding from the world, and while I was willing to condone it for a brief period, I wasn’t going to allow her to do it forever. But, at this particular moment, I wasn’t going to press the issue.

I tossed the book back onto the pile and pushed away from my desk. I found that I had to skirt around Dickens, our black domestic feline, who had elected to take a nap almost immediately in front of the office door. He opened one yellow eye and regarded me silently as I stepped over him, but other than that he didn’t even twitch.

I was making my way down the stairs when the doorbell pealed once again in a rapid staccato.

“Hold on!” I yelled, not that I really expected anyone outside to hear me. “I’m coming, I’m coming…”

I skipped the last couple of stairs near the bottom, making the turn at the landing and almost jogged across the living room. With a quick turn of my wrist, I unlocked the door and swung it open.

Ben Storm was standing on my front porch, along with someone else I thought I recognized as a detective with the MCS but to whom I couldn’t place a name. Neither of them looked particularly happy, but I didn’t need to see their expressions to know something was wrong. I had been feeling the warning signs for a while now. I had just been too absorbed, and even more unwilling, to pay attention to them.

I had pretty much forgiven my friend for the incident involving the gun pointed at my wife, but there was still a bit of tension between us. Whether it was because of something yet unresolved regarding that, or if it was simply because Felicity was still considered a suspect in the eyes of the Major Case Squad, I wasn’t sure. Either way, I had no choice but to feel it flowing between us right now as our eyes met.

Ben reached out and pulled the storm door open and looked at me quietly for a heartbeat or two before saying, “Do you mind if we come in, Row?”

I definitely didn’t like the sound of his voice, and my skin started prickling once again.

“That depends, Ben,” I replied evenly. “Do I have any choice in the matter?”

He reached up and smoothed his hair back, looked down at the porch briefly, then back up to my face. “Actually… No.”

“Do I need to call our attorney?” I asked.

He returned a shallow nod. “It’d be a good idea, Row.”

Ten minutes later I was standing in the middle of my living room, a copy of an arrest warrant clenched in my fist and quiet rage boiling in my chest as my friend applied a pair of handcuffs to my wife.

As he was snapping them shut, I heard him quietly say to her, “Felicity, listen ta’ me carefully, and do exactly what I tell ya’. Just acknowledge your rights, and then don’t say another word. Do ya’ hear me?”

“Detective Storm!” the other man said.

“Fuck off,” my friend barked, shooting a hard stare at the other cop.

Thick silence filled in behind the outburst, and he turned back to Felicity. His voice slipped into an official tenor, droning through a flat monotone.

As he spoke, his words bit into my skull, raping my ears with the vile reason for their existence.

“You have the right to remain silent and refuse to answer questions. Do you understand?…”

Saturday, November 19

10:05 A.M.

Saint Louis, Missouri

The man hadn’t slept in better than twenty-four hours. Not since he had awakened early Friday morning. His eyes were bloodshot, and his face sagged with exhaustion, but sleep simply wouldn’t come. Every time he closed his eyes, he saw her face.

Her face as it grew even paler than her ivory skin could possibly be…

Her eyes as she looked to him for salvation he was unable to give…

Her lips as she plead with him, calling his name even though they were beginning to tremble…

Her mask of fear as she was placed in restraints and hastily led away from him…

He sighed heavily and felt the pain well deep within once again. The sadness was overwhelming, and all he really wanted to do was sit and cry. But, he couldn’t. There were no more tears left. He had already used them all.

Besides, crying wasn’t going to do any good, and he knew that. He just wasn’t sure what would.