Gerald Seymour - A Deniable Death

He thought himself destroyed. He could imagine the faces of the men who would have sat in the car at the front of the convoy. They would show him no sympathy, no understanding. His father in the gallows shed at the gaol showed no sympathy or understanding when a condemned man was led in to stand beside the stool on which he would be perched. Neither did he show it when a man was brought out through the gates and placed under the crane’s arm. He did not know of one officer in the Brigade who would offer understanding. Despair washed around him – and the shout was in his ear.

A guard, from the Basij, pointed. All of them followed his finger – and saw nothing. The guard was a peasant, one of a line of subsistence farmers. Perhaps he had been sent out to sit on the hillsides north of Ahvaz and watch the sheep, be certain the lambs did not stray. The guard called that he could see a man, carrying another and dragging a load.

They ran towards the dawn, in a chaotic stampede, but Mansoor, with his damaged leg, could not keep pace with the younger, fitter men and bellowed that they should slow, go only at his speed. He sucked in air, filled his lungs, went as fast as his leg would carry him. They were off the bund line and on flat baked ground. The strip of gold widened below the silver.

He saw the man. Why had he come? He was alone, carrying the body on his shoulder and dragging what seemed like a khaki litter behind him. He moved at snail speed. For a moment, Mansoor believed fortune favoured him. Then he looked ahead of the man and saw the reed bed that stretched in front of him. He saw also that the first light of day had made a mist shimmer in it.

The distance to the target was some three hundred yards, and the light was poor and- He demanded rapid-fire bursts on automatic – but they were men of the Basij, not of the Brigade.

He had no cover. His goal was the reed bed where, perhaps, an old watercourse had run and enough seepage had survived the drainage programme.

Badger couldn’t see beyond it, didn’t know how wide it was, but was aware of the mist. It crept towards him, and meandered among the clumps of reeds, some thick, others collapsed: it was a refuge and a goal.

He heard the crack of bullets going above him. They thudded into the hard mud and made dirt puffs. Two shook him – they would have struck the bergens on the holed inflatable. Some were close but more were high and wide, or short and no threat to him. They gave him incentive. A paratrooper, a sergeant, had said to him on the Brecons, ‘I tell you, kiddo, nothing gets you moving better than live rounds when they’re headed at you. They clear the bowels and get you up to pace.’ He seemed now – with the whine overhead and the patter into the mud – not to feel Foxy’s weight over his shoulder, or the pain of his palm, which was raw where the rope attached to the inflatable chafed. With the light came the flies, but the shooting kept Badger going, and there were distant shouts.

He remembered nothing of this place.

He could have been here before or not. He had no recall of the berm he had come across and the bund line to his left, or the dried-out plateau and scant reeds in front of him. All croppies hoovered information. From anywhere and any source, information was gold dust. It might come from a lecture hall or a chance encounter, but all of it had value and should be squirrelled into storage. A driver had taken a team of them, in a police wagon, out onto the Pennine moors for a CROP on what might have been a jihadist training camp. He’d talked of his time in the United Nations police force in Croatia; there had been a story of a breakout from a besieged town and the likely result of failure was being massacred by their enemy. Those Croats had tried to go across country the fifteen or so miles to the nearest haven, and some had been captured – slaughtered – because they had ended up going in circles, all sense of direction lost. They were so weak from lack of sleep and food that they had doubled back on themselves and, two days later, had been where they’d started out. Not a story that was easy to forget. Badger remembered the trite laughter among his fellow croppies. Now he had no compass, but he had the growing light in the east. He, too, was clapped out from exhaustion and hunger.

He would get to the cover of the reeds and the low mist and would push through. He wouldn’t see the Pajeros in front of him but the house, the kids playing with a football, the barracks and the lamp-post from which a fraying rope hung. It was a nightmare. He shouted, ‘We going right, Foxy? You’ll tell me if we’re wrong? Least you can do, stuck up there, is tell me if I’m off course.’

There seemed to be an answering yell, but not from Foxy.

Badger twisted his head. He could see over the skin of Foxy’s buttocks. The officer limped among his guys, ranting at them. The shooting stopped and he made a line of them, then brought them forward.

‘Foxy, is there any excuse for dumping the inflatable and one of the bergens?’

The line of guys, with their officer, was around two hundred yards from him, and more shots were fired, but wide. He had fifty yards to go until he reached the reeds, but the mist came towards him – might last thirty minutes, but every other morning it had burned off quickly. Might be too quick for him.

‘There’s the one with mostly clothing, not that we’ve used it, some of the kit and the last of the grenades. The other’s where communications is. There’s not much in it either. What you reckon, Foxy?’

More yelling from the officer, and they veered away from the direct line, turned a sharp angle and went into the reeds. Nine men with their officer. The foliage swallowed them. They would have seen, from where their jeeps had stopped in loose sand and they had elevation, how far the reeds went, and would have judged they could make their cordon line on the far side.

‘I’m going to dump both bergens, Foxy. Goes against the grain, hurts, but at least it’s all sanitised. Don’t bloody critise me.’

Badger hit the reeds. They lacked the life of the beds beside the hide and were diseased, stunted. He could hear, to his left, shouts and dried stems breaking. He thought – so far – that a fragile curtain of morning mist might have saved him. Useless things now played in his mind. There had been big estates above the Thames, outside Reading, and kids he had known had earned cash from beating: they had been paid to drive reared birds, most of which could barely fly, into the cordon where the guns were. When they came out of the cover they were blasted. He was down on his knees and still carried Foxy, didn’t allow him to slide off his shoulder. He dragged at some broken reeds and made a shallow pile of them over the two bergens. He had, now, only the pistol, the magazine already in it and one more, and he had short-range communications that would link with Alpha Juliet. Everything else that should have been brought home and returned to Stores was in the two bergens. It hurt him to abandon them. Badger pushed himself up and turned his back on them. He began to thread through the stems. The light was growing.

‘Worst thing I’ve ever done, Foxy, is dumping that kit. What I do reckon, though, is that she’ll be at the extraction place. We have to get there. She won’t ditch us like I ditched the bergens. She’s the sort of girl who’ll be there. She’s great. Foxy, all that shit you told me about your woman, about your Ellie, I’ve forgotten it. I’m going to get you to where Alpha Juliet is, Foxy. That all right?’

He went carefully, and the light grew. He could do a better pace without the backpacks to pull, but he knew the cordon line would be in front of him, and the guns. Who knew where he was? No bastard did. Who cared where he was? Alpha Juliet might. No other bastard would. He was deniable. No reason for any bastard to know or care.