Randy White - Twelve Mile Limit

There is nothing in life so unsettling or so painful as the unknown.

Alcohol is a favorite analgesic for both.

The traditional Friday parties at Dinkin’s Bay are usually relaxed and conversational, with pauses for music and maybe a little dancing. Fifteen or twenty people mingling on the docks, discussing esoterica that would be of interest only to those of us who live on the islands.

This party was different, though. It had a different attitude and a different feel, probably because of the stress we’d all been under-not just because of Janet, but because, for the last many months, we’d all been living with the knowledge that Dinkin’s Bay soon might be closed to all powerboat traffic.

If that happened, the feds would come in, rip down the old Florida fish camp that is Dinkin’s Bay, and replace it with some sterile, pressure-treated, and poured-to-form clone of the government’s idea of a marina. They would equip it with regulation buildings and docks. It seemed unlikely that, on Sanibel, they’d be able to find and hire the breed of seniority-system employees such buildings required, but that was a sad possibility, too.

For one or both reasons, everyone at the marina that night seemed more intimately aware that life is brief and that our interaction with the people and places we love is temporary. Those feelings caused the party to move with a complex intensity and at a much faster pace.

A final contributing factor to the near riot that occurred may have been presaged earlier that day by Dieter Rasmussen, who’d told us that the fourth stage of mourning usually included anger with a potential for violence.

What began as a celebration of a good woman’s life later turned very violent indeed.

By the time the limbo contest started, I’d had four or five tumblers of fresh grapefruit juice and vodka and was enjoying myself very much. First time I got a chance, I went up to Amelia Gardner and apologized for apparently suggesting that she had some guilty secret to confess, explaining, “It’s not that I was suspicious of you, I just don’t know you well enough. When someone asks me to keep something confidential, I need to know who and what I’m dealing with for a very simple reason-if I give my word, I will keep the information confidential.”

It seemed to mollify her, put us back on friendly footing again, which pleased me more than I expected. I liked her rangy looks, her private, businesswoman’s grin, the way she moved from group to group, socializing comfortably. Liked her plain, handsome face, her Irish hair. Liked the way she stood, hands on hips, one knee bent slightly-a cattle wrangler’s stance-and the way her expression narrowed, focusing, when people spoke to her, giving them her absolute attention. She was a person alone among strangers, but one who could take care of herself, no problem.

One thing I was unable to do was get her by herself long enough to ask about the boat she said she’d seen. At one point, I tried, and she touched a finger to her lips very briefly, and said, “Later, okay? I’m going to spend the night with your sister. She said she has a house near here?”

True. Along with her Hewes Bonefisher, Ransom had used the inheritance from her father, Tucker Gatrell, to buy a tiny little bungalow just down from Ralph Woodring’s place, off Woodring’s Point, near the mouth of Dinkin’s Bay. Ralph let her keep the skiff at his dock, so she could run back and forth to the marina anytime she wanted.

“Okay,” I told Amelia, pleased that she was staying. “We’ll get together late tonight. Or tomorrow, maybe, for breakfast.”

The big fight began at Sanibel Grill, moved to the Crow’s Nest at ’Tween Waters Inn on Captiva, then spilled out onto the deck of the pool bar, spreading to the little beach that angled into the bay.

It started an hour or so after the limbo contest, which Tomlinson won, though I did not see the finish for the simple reason that I preferred not to watch. When Tomlinson limbos, he wears nothing but his sarong, which is why Mack, Jeth, and I, along with most of the other fishing guides, made it a point to stroll out on the docks and talk among ourselves-unless it was Ransom’s turn. Except for me, there wasn’t a man at the marina who didn’t want to watch her.

Which is why I tend to be overly protective of her, and overly suspicious of any man who shows an interest in her.

There is no denying that Ransom is a stunning-looking woman. I’m not certain of her age. She refuses to confide even in me. With her long, sprinter’s legs, dense muscularity, and skin the color and texture of chocolate toffee, she could be thirty-two-or forty-five. No telling. What I do know is that, a few years back, she got tired of being overweight and out of shape and, in her own words, decided to take back her “womanly life.” She started working out, watching her diet, and now she is mostly muscle and sinew, but with all the appropriate angles and curves, and she has become my devoted running and weight-lifting partner.

Tomlinson often refers to her as living proof of his own private theory: The world’s most beautiful women are always well into their thirties, forties, or fifties because only the experience of living and prevailing day after day can provide the necessary emotional texture and depth of understanding that Tomlinson’s definition of “beauty” requires.

Ransom is smart and beautiful and funny, too. But she is no man’s toy and no person’s fool. So there’s something I have to keep reminding myself: My cousin is very capable of taking care of herself.

By the time the limbo contest ended, it was a little after nine. Still early, so we decided, as a group, to walk along Tarpon Bay Road to Timber’s Restaurant, which is just a couple hundred yards from the shell lane that leads to Dinkin’s Bay Marina.

In late November, there’s a little post-Thanksgiving tourism lull. Even so, the restaurant was busy-people standing in line at the fresh-fish counter-so we pushed tables together at Sanibel Grill, the adjoining sports bar, and sat together, a dozen of us crowded in tight. Nice bar with dark wood, good ventilation with palms outside the windows and a Gulf wind breezing through, orange Converse basketball shoes holding condiments on the tables-yes, basketball shoes-ceiling fans, walls a museum of sports memorabilia and photos of the restaurant’s gifted, idiosyncratic owner with a garden variety of famous jocks.

Jeth and I exchanged our empty plastic cups for fresh beer, and he said to me, speaking very softly, “I don’t know why, but I feel a lot better after listening to Amelia. It kind of shook me out of my funk about what happened and the way it happened. She talked about me, Doc. Janet, I mean. The night their boat sunk, I was the one she was thinking about.”

After a long pause, he said, “I miss her like crazy. I never realized what a prize I had until she was gone, but the fact that she told the others about me-the guy I thought she was dating, Michael-the fact that she told him and the two women that she loved me, it makes me feel closer to her than I maybe ever felt before.”

He thought about it for another moment, the noise of the bar shielding us from people sitting nearby, and then added, “I believe the story Amelia told us back at the marina. At least, I want to believe her. Or maybe… what kind of worries me is, you think she’d make up some of that stuff just to make me feel better?”

I told him, “I think she’d probably stretch the truth to make it easier on us as a group. Sure. But lie just to make you feel better? When they were in the water, unless Janet really talked about you, how else would Amelia know your name, that you and Janet were lovers? No. She wasn’t lying. I know Janet… I knew Janet, and I know how much she cared for you. I don’t doubt for a moment that Janet’s last words, her last thoughts, were about you.”