Michael Robotham - Bleed For Me

‘It’s only me, Sienna,’ I whisper. ‘It’s OK, sweetheart. Everything’s going to be fine.’

My fingers frozen and numb, I feel for a pulse on her neck. Her eyes are open. Flat. Cold.

I put her arm over my shoulder and slide one hand beneath her thighs and another behind her back.

‘I’m just going to pick you up now.’

She doesn’t respond. Doesn’t resist. She weighs nothing, but I’m unsteady. Carrying her back along the bank, I walk blindly because I can’t point the torch properly. All the while, I’m talking to Sienna, whispering between heavy breaths, telling her not to worry.

My ankle snags on a root, sending me sideways. At the last moment I take the impact on my shoulder, protecting Sienna’s head.

A sudden surge of panic rips the calmness. She hasn’t said a word. Hasn’t moved. She might be dead. She might never be able to tell me who did this to her.

The bridge. The arch. I have to free my arm and use a sapling to pull both of us up the bank to the edge of the road. Sienna hangs limply from my other arm, a dead weight, being pulled across the ground.

‘Stay with me, sweetheart. We’re almost there.’

One last effort, I drag her to the edge of the bridge and lever myself over the wall, holding her body to stop her tumbling back down the slope. There are torches dancing between the trees, coming towards us. Blue flashing lights decorate the sky above them.

I put Sienna down gently, cradling her head against my chest. Breathing hard.

‘I told you we’d make it.’

She doesn’t answer. She doesn’t blink. Her skin is cold, but I can feel a pulse beneath my fingers.

‘There they are!’ someone yells.

A powerful light illuminates every detail of the scene. I hold up my hand to shield my eyes.

‘She needs a doctor.’

I glance down at Sienna and notice the blood. I thought it was mud on her thighs and hands, but she’s bleeding. Her eyes are open, staring blindly past me.

A paramedic crouches beside me on the bridge, taking Sienna and laying her on the tarmac with a coat beneath her head. He yells instructions to his partner. Pulse. Blood pressure. Good signs.

Another set of hands helps me to stand, holding me up, making sure I don’t fall. One of them is asking me questions.

Did I find her in the water? Was she conscious? Did she fall? Is she allergic to any drugs?

I don’t know.

‘She’s my daughter’s best friend,’ I say through chattering teeth.

What a stupid statement! What difference does that make?

Julianne’s face appears in front of me. ‘He’s shivering. Get him a blanket.’

Her arms wrap around me and I feel her warmth. She will not fail. She will not let me go.

The ambulance reverses down the hill. The back doors open. A litter slides from within. Sienna is rolled on to a spinal board and lifted on the count of three.

‘We have to take you to the hospital, sir,’ says a paramedic.

‘My name is Joe.’

‘We have to take you to the hospital, Joe.’

‘I’m all right - just out of breath.’

‘It’s a precaution. Do you know this girl?’

‘Her name is Sienna.’

‘You can ride with Sienna. Try to keep her calm.’

Calm? She’s catatonic. She’s a statue.

Wrapped in a silver trauma blanket, I’m half pushed and half lifted into the ambulance. Julianne wants to come with me, but she has Charlie and Emma to think about.

The right door closes.

‘Call me,’ she says.

The left door locks shut. A hand hammers a signal and we’re moving.

‘Did she take anything?’ asks the paramedic.

‘I don’t know.’

‘Did she say anything?’

‘No.’

He shines a pencil-torch in her eyes and slips an oxygen mask over her face.

The siren wails, chasing us through the darkness. Sienna is lying completely still, her limbs muddy and pale, her stomach rising and falling with each breath.

I keep seeing her in the beam of the torch - a spectral figure with her brown hair hanging in a fringe across her face. She was looking at me as though she’d seen something terrible or done something worse.

It has just gone midnight and the sky is a black sponge. Police vans are parked outside the Royal United Hospital and four paramedics are kicking a coffee cup around the ambulance bay, scoring goals between the bins.

My feet move unsteadily, as though unsure of the depth of the ground. Ushered through swinging doors, I follow a young triage nurse to a consulting room. She takes my wet clothes and hands me a hospital gown and a thin blue blanket.

Then I’m left alone in the small room with a bench and an examination table covered in a sheet of paper. There are no magazines to read. No televisions to watch. I find myself reading the labels on syringes and medical swabs, making words from the letters.

Forty minutes later a doctor appears. Obese and prematurely bald, he’s the sort of physician who finds the gulf between preaching and practising healthy living one dessert too far. He examines me in a perfunctory way - blood pressure, temperature, ‘say aaaaah’ . . .

Most of his questions are about Sienna. Did she take anything, did she say anything; does she have any allergies or sensitivities to medications?

‘She’s not my daughter,’ I keep repeating.

He makes a note on his clipboard.

‘She was bleeding.’

‘The blood wasn’t hers,’ he says matter-of-factly. ‘The police want to talk to you. They’re waiting outside.’

The policeman is a senior constable whose name is Toltz and he writes left-handed with a cupped wrist so he doesn’t smudge his notebook.

‘What was she doing at your house?’

‘It’s not really my house. My wife and I are separated. Sienna turned up and then ran away.’

‘Why?’

‘There must have been an accident. Perhaps her boyfriend drove off the road. He could be hurt.’

‘Why your house?’

‘She’s my daughter’s friend. Her mother works nights. Sienna often stays with us.’

The senior constable doesn’t react to my sense of urgency. He wants to know where Sienna goes to school, how she knows Charlie, does she do drugs or drink alcohol?

I think about the shoplifting charge, but he’s already moved on to a new question.

‘Did you follow her into the woods?’

‘I went looking for her.’

‘Did you chase her?’

‘No.’

Suddenly the door opens and another officer motions him into the corridor. They’re whispering and I pick up only occasional words like ‘body’ and ‘detectives’. Something terrible has happened.

The senior constable reappears and apologises. A detective will be along shortly to interview me.

‘Can I go home?’

‘Not yet, sir.’

‘What about my clothes?’

‘They’ve been taken for analysis.’

‘Why?’

‘This is a murder investigation.’

Who? Her boyfriend? Someone else? The senior constable ignores my questions and tells me to wait for the detectives. His heavy boots squeak on the polished floor as he disappears down the hallway, through a set of swinging doors that flap back and forth before settling to a stop.

I look at my watch. It’s after one a.m. I should call Julianne. Tell her not to worry. Reaching for my phone, I can’t find a pocket. I’m wearing a hospital gown. My phone, wallet and car keys were in my jacket. Wet. Ruined.

I passed a payphone in the accident and emergency department. I can ask Julianne to bring me some clothes.

Pushing open the door, I try to remember which way I came in. A cleaner is mopping the corridor, pushing a bucket with his foot. I don’t want to step on his wet floor so I turn right, passing the X-ray department and radiology.