Avraham Azrieli - The Masada Complex

“He regretted having to pay Hassan back the money he had gotten for me.”

The man tugged on his goatee. “Your father did his best.”

“He sold a sixteen-year-old girl, who spoke only Arabic and had never left the refugee camp, to a fifty-year-old butcher, who took me to America. I lost half my weight in four months and as many pregnancies.”

“I understand.” The man crumpled his beret. “He prayed for Allah to bless you with your own family in a free country.”

“Hassan accused me of causing the miscarriages, and Father believed him. Do you know the punishment for abortion under the law of Sharia?” She choked. “I was a child myself!”

The man dabbed at his eye again. “Your father begs Allah’s forgiveness every day.”

He was wrong, of course, but Elizabeth had no will to dredge up the pain. “Who are you?”

He bowed. “Here, I am known as Professor Levy Silver.”

“ A Jew?” She had assumed he was a Palestinian who had lost his accent after many years in America. “My father sent me a Jew?” She reached into the car and pulled out her purse. “How much?”

“No, no!” He put his hands up. “Money is not a problem.”

“Then what is the problem?”

He pointed at the building. “I seek permanent resident status.”

“File an application. If you have a job, your employer can sponsor you.”

“My employer is you.”

She looked at him. Was he mad?

“I work for you and the rest of the Palestinian people. My work is secret, of course.”

Elizabeth entered her car.

“I need a green card, and you are in the best position to fix it.”

“ Fix it ?”

“Hajj Mahfizie was told of your position. Such a title entails lots of power.”

“It entails a duty to enforce the law, Professor, not to break it.” She started the engine. “For your sake, I will forget this conversation ever happened.” She began to close the door.

He grabbed it halfway and leaned into her car, emitting a smoker’s breath. “I’ll meet you tomorrow night, ten-fifteen, at McDonald’s on the corner of Indian School and Twelfth Street.”

She was paralyzed. How did he know her Tuesday night routine?

“Meal number three.” He smiled, adjusting his black-rimmed glasses. “With strawberry shake. To go.”

Elizabeth McPherson watched the professor get into his black sedan. She gripped the steering wheel to stop her hands from shaking and wondered, Does he know what I do on Wednesday nights?

Rabbi Josh stopped by to check on Masada, who was already up, unpacking boxes of books. She was barefoot, in loose jeans and a white tank top, smelling of shampoo. She offered him her cheek.

“Good book.” He pointed to The Case for Israel by Allan Dershowitz.

“He got it all wrong.” Masada pulled a bunch of volumes from the open box and lined them on the shelf.

He noticed the circles under her eyes. “How did you sleep?”

She shrugged.

“Nightmares are common after a traumatic event.”

“You’re talking from personal experience?”

“I’ve worked with veterans.”

She stacked more books on the shelf. “Don’t psych me. I’m not one of those lunatic veteran the U.S. military is so good at producing.”

He knew she was referring to Al Zonshine, who had stalked her after her lecture at Temple Zion, having convinced himself that Masada was interested in him. It had taken the rabbi’s intervention and a threat of a restraining order to keep Al away. “Vietnam crippled a lot of souls,” Rabbi Josh said. “It’s not like serving in the Israeli army.”

“How do you know that?”

“Am I wrong?”

She grabbed her keys from the counter. “Let’s go for a drive.”

The garage was hot. Masada started the Corvette and turned up the AC.

“Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome,” Rabbi Josh said, “isn’t a cause for shame. Some people are fine for years, able to suppress the memories, live with an emotional time bomb. Then something happens.”

“Like a car flying into a ravine?” Masada pressed the gas, revving the engine.

“Or witnessing a violent suicide.” He glanced at her. “A new trauma saps the mental energy needed to contain the old trauma, which then explodes to the surface.”

“I left my ticking bombs in Israel.” She reversed out of the garage.

“Old traumas continue to tick even if we try to suppress them. They often manifest in vivid nightmares.”

Masada accelerated up the street, turning into Echo Canyon Road without slowing down. “You think I’m going crazy?”

Her tone confirmed he had touched a nerve. “Are you?”

Masada decelerated sharply to stop at a red light. “I’m not Al Zonshine.”

Rabbi Josh turned to her but said nothing. Her thinness extenuated the features of her face-a straight nose, high cheekbones, and a perfect jaw. He interlocked his fingers, keeping his hands in his lap, longing to touch her. “He is a member of my flock. I’ve tried to help him fight off his demons.”

“Unsuccessfully, it seems.”

“Has he bothered you again?”

“Not since the restraining order was issued.” Masada took off as the light changed, pushing the car hard. She downshifted, approaching a turn. “There’s a barf bag under the seat.”

“Thanks.” He laughed, realizing the drive was intended to test him.

“Did Raul like my Corvette?”

“He wants me to trade the Honda for one of these. I told him it’s unbecoming for a rabbi.”

Masada downshifted to pass a slower car and turned right on Camelback Road so fast that he had to grab the door handle to avoid falling on her. She laughed. “God, I love this car.”

“God loves you too.” He watched her shifting gears with a slender arm. The radio played, I’m a prisoner of your soul, a lifer in paper walls, plastered with your face, before you left this earth. He thought of Linda’s photos on his own walls, her clear eyes framed in carrot-red curls, a smile that was contagious even when he cried.

Masada lowered the volume on the radio. “A shekel for your thoughts.”

He hesitated. “I miss my wife.”

“Do you feel guilty about liking another woman?”

“Liking would have been fine. But when it’s more than liking-”

“Guilt is impractical. I prefer anger.” Masada pushed her hair behind her ears. “Aren’t you angry at whatever killed her?”

“I’m angry at myself.” Rabbi Josh sighed. “How about you?”

“It’s easy for me. I blame Israel for the deaths of my parents and brother.”

“Is that why you’re so eager to indict Israel?”

“Who else would pay Mahoney to sponsor a mutual defense act with Israel?”

“Christian fundamentalists? Jehovah’s Witnesses? Michael Jackson? The world is filled with misguided souls.”

“Only countries spend that kind of money on bribes, and Israel is the only country interested in legislation that would force our president to declare war on whoever attacks Israel.”

“And require Israel to fight against anyone attacking America.”

“Ha!”

“It’s convenient to only see the facts that support your theory.

Can’t you acknowledge the possibility it wasn’t Israel?” Rabbi Josh put his arm forward as the car came to a screeching halt at a red light. “That Fair Aid legislation is a terrible development.”

“Israel should have learned from the Pollard affair, the Abramoff and AIPAC scandals. Instead, they bribed Mahoney, and failed.”

“You say ‘Israel’ as if it’s a single entity that acts and speaks in one voice. You know how divided and conflicted Israel is, including the ever-changing coalition government. And even if one of Israel’s agencies did bribe Mahoney, should the whole Zionist enterprise suffer?”