April Smith - North of Montana

“I could ask you the same question.”

“But that’s just it. I don’t dislike you, Ana. If I’m tough with you it’s because you can take it. And maybe also, frankly, because you need it. You do tend to carry a chip.”

“So you denied my transfer for my own good.”

Duane isn’t interested in sarcasm from me. He is concentrating on following the line of his sincerity, which is an effort.

“When the time comes, you’ll take off like a bat out of hell and nobody’ll stop you. But there’s no need to be in such a hurry. Christ, you’re not even thirty yet, are you?”

I have been leaning my butt against the edge of one of the brown lunchroom tables. I am wearing a short black skirt, black tights and heels and it makes me feel sexy and insouciant to be lounging there, arms crossed, fingering the soft sleeves of the white sweater I wore for the potluck lunch, the one with the lacy almost see-through bodice. Duane Carter is looking at me with a neutral kind of innocence like an adolescent boy who has quit setting fires for the day and is on his knees playing with a toy car collection like when he was six.

“The fact remains that I made a perfect bust out there at California First Bank and I deserve to be rewarded for it, not punished.”

“I’m trying to explain this is not about punishment—”

“Sure it is. You’re punishing me because I’m female.”

He squeezes his eyes shut and laughs out loud. “I hope you don’t really believe that.”

“Yes, I do, and I’m going to bring an EEOC lawsuit charging sex discrimination against you and the Bureau to prove it.”

Duane gets to his feet and tosses the chair aside. His hands are deep in his pockets, feeling for those stolen matches or whatever his source of destructive psychic power. The innocence is gone and black fire rages once again in his eyes. That didn’t take long.

• • •

Ever since that class action suit on behalf of Hispanic agents, the FBI has been under scrutiny; another lawsuit filed by some black agents also received wide attention. I know very well the powers that be within the Bureau will not tolerate accusations of discrimination against the Los Angeles field office.

It turns out, after a couple of conversations with the advocacy lawyers, that I have a very good case. So good that on the eve of the filing deadline, Special Agent in Charge Robert Galloway calls both Duane and me to his office for a special meeting.

I have never been inside Galloway’s corner office, with the wide-open view of downtown Los Angeles and the better carpeting and new butterscotch plaid furniture.

“I had to go back to the start of this thing to try and get somewhere,” Galloway begins in his Brooklyn accent, “and I can see where each of you has a particular point of view.”

Galloway worked the organized crime division of our New York office for eighteen years yet there isn’t a strand of gray on his head of thick wavy black Irish hair. He always wears a turtleneck — his trademark — never a shirt and tie, no matter what the occasion or weather, giving rise to rumors of tracheotomies and bullet wounds and cancer scars.… But he still smokes cigars so either he’s got a death wish or, like the rest of us, he holds out for being a maverick in his own way.

It is ten thirty and below us the blocky low cityscape of Los Angeles is lit by a dazzling milky white haze that will burn off to clear skies and seventy-five degrees by noon. By coincidence Duane and I are both wearing navy blue suits with white shirts, which makes us look like a pair of airline reservation clerks.

On the coffee table there are souvenirs of Galloway’s days in New York City, including a model of the Statue of Liberty and a four-inch oval brass seal of NYPD Detective Division.

Galloway picks it up and worries it in his hand. I ask what it’s for.

“It’s a belt buckle. They couldn’t afford to give me the whole belt.”

He refers to a file on his lap. He has come around the desk, management style, positioning himself near us to show we are all equal, comfortably sitting with legs crossed, an unlit cigar between his teeth.

“Going back to this bust at the bank … it looks like Ana did quite a noteworthy thing. She ascertained there was a felony in progress, single-handedly isolated and subdued the subject so that he could be arrested without incident by LAPD.… And then”—he shakes his head and laughs—“the schmuck turns out to be good for six other robberies!”

He laughs and laughs. He laughs until he coughs and turns red in the face.

Duane Carter is not even smiling. He is leveling that eerie killer look at Galloway. I remember Donnato telling me about their rivalry and feel a chill, wondering if Galloway feels it, too.

“Special Agent Grey failed to call for backup assistance, thereby endangering herself and the public,” says Duane.

Galloway wipes his eyes. “You’re right. Calling in a 211 in progress would have been the approved procedure.”

His arm is dropped over the side of the chair but he’s still holding the heavy belt buckle, fingering it with implacable cool. They are locked on to each other now.

“He’s right on a technicality.” I am swinging my leg impatiently. “He’s not right to deny me a transfer because—”

“I said at the beginning that you both have a point,” Galloway interrupts sharply. “Stop pouting, Ana, it’ll give you worry lines and you’re much too young and pretty.”

He raises his eyebrows, daring me to call him on it. Instead I take a cue from his own behavior and laugh. More of a snort, actually, but at least I’m not pouting.

“I’m going to allow Duane’s addendum to stand.”

Meaning it will be a part of my personal file forever. Other people down the line will read it, not know the facts, and assume I screwed up. The unfairness of it propels me to my feet.

“That is just plain wrong!”

“Nobody says you have to agree.”

“I don’t agree. I disagree in the strongest terms and I’m certain the EEOC will back me up.”

I stop breathlessly. The power has shifted with dizzying speed. Now they’re both watching me, secure in their chairs, while I’m stamping my foot in the middle of the room.

The worst of it is Duane Carter looking at me with pity .

“Well, if you’d calm down and cool out,” Galloway continues, “I’ll tell you the rest of my decision.”

I back down into the chair.

“I’m going to let the addendum stand … but I am also going to approve Ana’s request for transfer.”

“Excuse me,” says Duane, “but ain’t that just the teensiest bit disingenuous? How can you do both?”

“I’m approving Ana’s transfer on a contingency basis. If after a trial period it looks like she can handle it, then we’ll go ahead and move her up to Kidnapping and Extortion.”

“What a complete pile of steaming horseshit.”

In my opinion it is a masterly compromise.

“What’s the contingency?” I ask eagerly.

Galloway gets up and goes back to the desk, puts the half-chewed cigar in an ashtray with two other soggy butts.

“I’m going to put you on a drug case. See how you do.”

I’m leaning forward in my chair ready to jump up and sprint for it, whatever it is.

“This came to me through the Director’s office. It’s what they call ‘high profile.’ ”

I can’t tell if Galloway is smiling because he’s giving me a gift or because he finds the words “high profile” particularly amusing, worthy of an ironic twist. In the meantime, Duane’s face is turning so dark it is almost the color of his navy blue suit.

“Jayne Mason is alleging that her physician got her addicted to prescription drugs.”