Joe Lansdale - Edge of Dark Water

“After that, all I could think about was getting her out to Hollywood. Before we had gotten into that spat, that’s what she had talked about. She said she was going. I didn’t know about the money. Not then. But now, thinking back on it, I understand that she had the money and she had the plan. And that night, in a moment of stupidity, I changed those plans. I killed her.”

I considered on this a long time. “It was an accident, Terry. If it happened the way you said. It was an accident.”

“It happened how I said. I jumped on top of her. I meant to do it. But I didn’t mean for that to happen. You have to believe me.”

“I do,” I said.

“Accident or not, it doesn’t make me innocent,” he said. “But I want you to know I didn’t mean for her to die.”

The door opened. Jinx came in; she lay across the bed and put her arm across Terry’s chest. “I heard all that. I can’t believe you didn’t tell me, too. Instead I had to lean up against the door like a thief.”

“I would have told you,” Terry said. “She asked, so I told her. I had plans to reveal the same thing to you.”

I glanced through the open doorway. Unlike Jinx, Mama hadn’t heard a thing. I could hear her gently snoring. I think you could have set a firecracker off and she wouldn’t have heard it.

I closed the door silently. Jinx kept hugging Terry. He patted her arm with his good hand.

“She shouldn’t have teased you,” Jinx said.

“That’s no excuse,” he said.

“Well, it wasn’t right,” Jinx said. “You are how you are, and May Lynn could think pretty high and mighty of herself at times. You ain’t got no need to get cured of nothing. I’ll tell you this, if it’ll make you feel any better. I tried to kill the old woman here, and on purpose, not by any accident. But the gun didn’t have no good bullets in it. It just clicked, and then she died on her own.”

“That’s best,” Terry said.

“I consider it a disappointment,” Jinx said.

It was decided not to tell Mama about what Terry had told us, least not right away, and that if it was told, we’d leave it to him to do it. I can’t say it felt good to find out how May Lynn had died, but I believed Terry’s story, and it made me feel some better to know he hadn’t just outright murdered her.

We was locked up in that house for a day without much water, and with no real good food to eat, just the last of those greens Mama had cooked up, and they had soured. It finally got to where it was go out and get something to eat or just get in the closet with the old woman and wait for death. I wasn’t certain Skunk was still out there anywhere, but if the stories about Skunk was true, then he could be. But my fear of Skunk couldn’t feed us. I had to get some kind of groceries pulled into the house, even if they was blackberries and frog legs.

There was also the matter of the old woman in the closet. She had already started to stink. She had to be taken out and buried, if for no other reason than so we could stay in that cabin in peace.

I was thinking on all this, bored, prowling around the house, looking for food goods-dried beans or peas, or a very large mouse-and I come upon an old tin box. I opened it. There was some faded blue ribbons inside, a bit of string and such, and there was some old photographs. They was of a young girl and an older man. He was standing with his hand on the girl’s shoulder. He had an expression like something inside him had backed up and stoppered and had turned rotten. The little girl had to be the old woman many years back. I could see something about that face that made me think it was her, but she looked happy. I wondered if she had been happy a lot when she was young. It was hard to imagine, but I reckoned it was true. The man in the picture had the same disappointed and bitter face the old woman had had; she had grown up to be him.

I slipped the photographs back in the tin and put it back where I had found it.

The food hunt being a failure, it was decided someone was going to have to stay with Terry, and someone was going to have to go out there in the big wide world and find something to eat, get the cans with the money and May Lynn. After that, it was all a crapshoot, because there wasn’t no way Terry was well enough for being laid down in the bottom of a boat and floated down to Gladewater.

We had to come up with a plan, and we did. It wasn’t the kind of plan that was going to be taught in military handbooks, but it was something, and it was this: me and Jinx would take the pistol and go and get water and find something to eat and get the cans. Mama would stay with Terry and keep the shotgun. But first we had to get a shovel and bury the old woman and Terry’s sawed-off arm. The idea of the body and arm in the house with us, and the smell they was starting to make, led us to want to get rid of them right away.

Like I said, none of this was anything that would have given Robert E. Lee pause, but it’s what we had.

We had Mama, against her disapproval, lock me and Jinx outside. Jinx carried the pistol, which was now loaded with real bullets, and me and her walked out back and found a shovel shoved up under the house, right where the old woman said it would be. We found some soft dirt that was far away from the well, and we took turns digging and holding the pistol. It took about two hours to get the grave dug deep and wide and long enough. When it was done, we went back to the house and called out to Mama and she let us in. Me and Jinx took the old woman out of the closet. We carried her outside and had Mama lock us out again. Jinx laid the pistol on top of the rolled rug, and with one of us carrying the head end, the other the feet, we toted her to the hole and laid her on the ground. Jinx set the pistol aside. We picked up the old woman again and dropped her in the hole. I ain’t going to lie. It wasn’t done gentle, and there wasn’t no ceremony to it. We started covering her up right away, trying to keep an eye peeled for Skunk. Skunk didn’t appear, and when we finally had her good and buried, Jinx took the shovel and patted the ground solid.

“Should we say some words?” I said.

“How about ‘I’m glad you’re dead, you old bitch’?”

“I was thinking of something nicer. Like she saved Terry’s life by cutting off his arm.”

“Well, then,” Jinx said, “there, you said it.”

Back at the house, we got the box of sawing tools with Terry’s arm in it, and we took it out to a spot by the woods and dug a hole there and buried it.

Next we went down to the river to check on the lard cans and to look for food. I didn’t see sign of Skunk nowhere, but I had this uncomfortable feeling that someone was watching us. I hadn’t had it when we was digging the holes, but now I did, and it was a feeling strong as lye soap. It could have been Skunk, a nest of birds, or just my imagination, but whatever it was made my skin crawl like a snake.

When we got down to the river we seen there was big fresh boot prints in the mud by the water, and the boat we had pulled up under the tree had the bottom hacked out of it. When I saw that, the hair on the back of my neck stuck up like porcupine quills. I looked ever which way, and Jinx did, too, turning with that big horse pistol in her hands, but we didn’t see no one. I sniffed the air. There seemed to be a faint stink hanging about, but it was possible I imagined it.

While Jinx watched, I went to where I had stuffed the cans under the berry vines. They was both there. I got hold of them, and we stood there for a moment trying to decide what to do.

“He’s done hacked the boat up to keep us from leaving,” Jinx said.

“We don’t have to go by river,” I said.

“No,” Jinx said. “But it’s harder for him to get us on the river. We walk out, we might as well just go on and hack off our own hands and cut our own throats now.”