Colin Harrison - The Finder

"What's this got to do with me?"

"Maybe nothing, all right?"

He brought her the drink and sat down next to her. She sipped the glass.

"I just thought you should know," Violet said, her eyes worried. He hadn't seen her like this in a long time.

"All right, what?"

"There was a third girl in that car."

"What?" But of course that made sense. He thought there might be three people when he was following the car along the Belt Parkway, then later figured he'd been wrong.

"Yes, she came out of the weeds, the grass near the little parking lot they got. Mrs. Polanzi's cousin has a house over there, she doesn't sleep much because her husband uses oxygen. She saw a pretty Chinese girl come running up the road there. It was raining, hard to see. She didn't think about it until later. She told the police about it the next day at the scene and they said thank you for the information, kind of like they knew already. Then a couple of days later she saw a big white limousine out there in the lot with a bunch of Chinese men in good suits. She'd never seen that before. It made her remember the Chinese girl. She wrote down the name of the limo company when the car went past again. She gave it to her cousin Frank, and Frank mentioned it to me and-"

"Frank some other guy who plays hide the salami with you?"

She punched him. "What do you care?"

"Just curious."

"You want to know?" she dared him. "You want me to tell you everything?"

He stood to go.

"Listen to me, Vic. I'm trying to help you. My friend Ronnie, who runs the limo service over in Bay Ridge, I asked him to make the call to the limo company even though it was a Manhattan company, he's got some connections there, you know, and he got through to the manager and the guy said that particular limo had real Chinese guys, from China, I mean, and that the bill went to some kind of Chinese bank or something. He said he charged them three times the usual, just to see what they'd do, and they said fine, whatever, charge it to our company, and he asked his driver, who was not Chinese, where they went and stuff and basically the driver said he didn't understand anything except that they were really looking for the girl who was in that car." Violet played with the edge of her nightgown. "Vic, she's some kind of important person for some Chinese guy with a lot of money, okay?"

He sat on the bed, thinking about it, incidentally rubbing his hand across her large, soft breast. He didn't care if Violet could tell by his silence that this information was important to him. The driver would know more than he pretended, like where the limo went and who else might have been in the car. Vic leaned close and kissed Violet on the cheek. "What would I do without you?" he said.

"Oh, Vic." She took his hand and kissed his fingers. "I just kinda got worried, you know."

He let his other hand caress the back of her head. She liked this, he could see. Ah, his thing with Violet. It was a thing they had, no doubt about it. Sad but real. She was maybe the only person who actually cared about it him. And for all he knew, she might have just saved his life. I've got the advantage now, Vic told himself, I'm going to get this guy.

His father was sleeping, and Ray studied him, feeling a stillness come over him. He had known this sensation before, had felt it when he carried out the body of a seven-year-old boy to his own father on a hillside in Kashmir, and though the boy had been dead for more than a day, the weather had been cold and the body was stiff and smelled like the stone dust it had been buried in. Ray had watched the father collapse silently to the ground, struck unconscious with grief, and while someone else ran for water and a blanket, Ray had held the boy in his arms, watching the wind lift his beautiful dark hair. It was a privilege to hold the body of boy for a man who loved his son so much, humbling, too, and Ray had known then he would hold the child as long as was needed. In such moments he had seen that everything he had ever wanted or might want was deeply insignificant, and that the secret to whatever peace might be available was to want as little as possible for yourself and as much as possible for others, especially those who wished no ill toward anyone. In such moments, and others like them-when he spent forty-six straight days carrying the tsunami dead, when he built a city of tents on a Turkish mountainside-he felt old parts of himself disappear. His religious training as a boy, never more than halfhearted, had cracked and fallen away. And one night while having sex with a young Italian nurse, a lovely girl, bouncy and true and seemingly untroubled by the grim work of the day, he had understood that he was fucking a corpse, and so was she. Worms and dust and putre faction, a terrible thing to know about yourself. Was his lust improved by the scent of death? He did not know. He did not know a lot of things anymore. He did not know, for example, whether he was an American. Of course others would identify him as such, and while he loved America, despite its ills and evils, his love was a sad thing to him, perhaps even an inescapable burden. Americans knew so little about the rest of the world. The expats whom he'd met who'd spent many years abroad admitted that their American essence had started to disappear, whether they wanted it to or not. And so too with Ray. Maybe this was why he had come home. He had come home to be with his father but also to find out if America was still his home. Or could be again.

His father groaned in his sleep, lifted his chin, eased downward again. Here lay the clever Brooklyn boy who became the beefy detective afraid of no one, who then became the near dead, the shade awaiting release. Don't be haunted, Ray told himself. He wanted to grieve but dared not, for if he began he might never stop. You cried for one, you cried for all.

Better to get going again, look for those trucks in Red Hook. He hopped on the Belt Parkway, then the Gowanus, and turned off on Hamilton Avenue. Red Hook, once a place of long wooden docks and brick warehouses, had been more or less abandoned to the disinterest of time. There were still a few old wooden structures on a block or two of cobblestone streets, sailors' and dockworkers' houses, two-story and reshingled a dozen times over the years. Except for some new stores, the urban adventurers hadn't really invaded in full force yet because there was no subway, no good parks, no decent schools. Red Hook was a place where you went if you didn't want to be in the heart of things, even in Brooklyn. One of the motorcycle gangs had a house down there, but things were quiet, very quiet.

He rolled his truck slowly along the streets, searching all the open spaces, until he came to a yard surrounded by twenty-foot galvanized fencing that was itself topped with another ten feet of razor wire. He had seen this wire in every country he'd ever been in, around military bases, police checkpoints, shipping yards, airports, relief camps. Nasty stuff. The lot held seven mobile shredding vehicles, each marked CorpServe and more than forty feet long. Big, new, well-maintained vehicles. Each a quarter million dollars a pop, anyway, and with this realization it was clear to him that CorpServe was a bigger operation than he had realized, than Jin Li had ever intimated. "Just office company," she'd said. "No big deal."

But to buy and maintain such vehicles, to pay the rent on the lot, to pay the insurance-just that portion of the business was a few million. At the end of the lot he saw a low brick building in poor repair. Something was written on the door. He pulled out his binoculars. The lettering was Chinese.

That was good enough for him. He parked and found his way to the gate. The padlock was a good one, would require industrial bolt cutters or a heavy-duty gas-powered saw, neither of which he was carrying around in his truck. He walked the perimeter of the lot, looking for an easier point of entry. There was none. A rotten old water tower stood just a foot outside the fence. He went back to his truck, retrieved an eighty-foot piece of nylon rope, a belayer's carabiner, and a long crowbar. He hung the rope around his neck and hooked the crowbar under his belt.