Justin Cronin - The Twelve

“You’re… different.” Stepping closer, he breathed sharply through his nose, darting it at the air around her like a dog.

“Yeah, I get that a lot.”

“I can smell it on you.”

“Can’t say I’ve had much of a chance to clean up.” She offered her boldest grin. “And you might be …?”

“I’ll ask the questions.”

“You know, you shouldn’t read in the dark like that. It’s hell on your eyes.”

He reared back and struck her, open-palmed, across the face.

“Wow,” Alicia said, waggling her jaw. “Ouch. That kind of stings.”

He moved forward again and violently twisted her upraised arm. “Why don’t you have a tag?”

“That’s a nifty outfit you’re wearing. Makes a girl feel a little under-dressed.”

Another blow to the face, like the crack of a whip. Alicia blinked her watering eyes and ran her tongue over her teeth, tasting blood. “You know, you guys have been doing that a lot. It’s not very welcoming. I don’t think I like you very much.”

His bloodshot eyes narrowed with rage. Now she was getting somewhere. “Tell me about Sergio.”

“Can’t say that rings a bell.”

He struck her again. Little scraps of light twinkled in her vision. She could tell that he was saving the full measure of his strength. He would dole it out one drop at a time, a slow escalation.

“Why don’t you cut me down from here and we can have us a real chat? Because this obviously isn’t working for you.”

Wham went his hand, a fist this time. It was like being hit by a board. Alicia shook it off, spitting blood.

“Tell me.”

“Go piss yourself.”

A hammering blow to her gut. Her breath froze in her chest as her diaphragm compressed like a vise. The airless seconds passed. The moment her lungs finally expanded, he hit her again.

“Who… is… Sergio?”

Alicia was having a little trouble focusing. Focusing and breathing and thinking. She braced herself for another blow, but none arrived; she became aware that the man had opened the door. Three figures stepped through. They were carrying a kind of bench, waist-high, with a broad frame at its base.

“I’d like to introduce you to a friend of mine. This is Sod. You’ve actually already met.”

Alicia’s vision gradually sharpened. Something was wrong with the man’s face. Or, rather, one side of his face, which looked like a slab of inconsistently cooked meat, raw at the center and blackened at the edges. Half the man’s hair had burned away, as had most of his nose. His left eye looked melted, vulcanized to a runny jelly.

“Yuck,” Alicia managed to reply.

“Sod here was in the holding area when you decided to shoot a tank full of liquid propane. He’s not so happy about it.”

“All in a day’s work. Nice to meet you, Sod. That’s quite a name, ‘Sod.’ ”

“Sod is a man of special enthusiasms. You could say the name is well earned. He has a bit of a bone to pick with you.” The man in the suit addressed the other two: “Tie her down. On second thought, wait a second.”

The blows fell and fell. The face. The body. By the time the man had exhausted himself, Alicia was barely feeling any of it. Pain had become something else—distant, vague. A rattle of chains and a release of pressure on her wrists. She was facing the floor, her waist straddling the bench and her feet bound to its frame, spread wide. Her trousers were yanked from her body.

“A little privacy for our friend here,” the first man said, and Alicia heard the door closing, and then the sound, ominous and final, of tumblers turning in the lock.

Every night, as Amy and Greer journeyed northward, she dreamed of Wolgast. Sometimes they were on the carousel. Sometimes they were driving in a car, the little towns and the green spring countryside flowing past, mountains looming in the distance, their faces shining with ice. Tonight they were in Oregon, at the camp. They were in the main room of the lodge, sitting across from each other on the floor, their legs folded Indian-style, and on the floor between them was the Monopoly board with its squares of faded color and money in ordered piles and Amy’s little hat and Wolgast’s little automobile and Wolgast tossing the dice from a cup and moving his piece forward to St. Charles Place, site of one of Amy’s six (six!) hotels. The room was warm from the stove, and outside the windows a dry snow was falling through the velvety darkness and the deep winter cold.

“For Pete’s sake,” he groaned.

He doled out the bills. His exasperation was false; he wanted to lose. He told her she was lucky, making it so with his words. You’re lucky, Amy.

Round and round their pieces traveled. More money changed hands. Park Place, Illinois Avenue, Marvin Gardens, the hilariously named “B. & O.” Amy’s stack of money grew as Wolgast’s shrank toward zero. She bought railroads and utilities, she had built her houses and hotels everywhere, a gauntlet of ownership that enabled her to erect more, blanketing the board. Understanding this accelerating mathematics was the key to the game.

“I think I need a loan,” Wolgast confessed.

“Try the bank.” She was grinning with victory. Once he borrowed money, the end would fall swiftly; he would toss up his arms in surrender. Then they would assume their customary places on the sofa, a blanket drawn up to their chests, and take turns reading to each other. Tonight’s book: H. G. Wells, The Time Machine .

He spilled the dice onto the board. A three and a four. He moved his car ahead and landed on “Luxury Tax,” with its little diamond ring.

“Not again.” He rolled his eyes and paid up. “It’s so wonderful to be here with you.” He lifted his eyes past her, to the window. “It sure is snowing out there. How long has it been snowing?”

“I think it’s been snowing a long time.”

“I’ve always loved it. It makes me remember being a kid. It always feels like Christmas when it snows.”

The wood in the stove crackled. All through the dense forest the snow fell and fell. Morning would break with a soft white light and silence, though in the place they were, morning would not come.

“Every year my parents took me to see A Christmas Carol . Wherever we were living, they’d find a theater and take me. Jacob Marley always scared me something awful. He wore the chains he forged in life . It’s so sad. But beautiful, too. So many stories are like that.” He thought for a moment. “Sometimes I wish I could stay here forever with you. Silly of me, I know. Nothing lasts forever.”

“Some things do.”

“What kind of things?”

“The things we like to remember. The love we’ve felt for people.”

“The way I love you,” said Wolgast.

Amy nodded.

“Because I do, you know,” he said. “Did I ever tell you that?”

“You didn’t need to say it. I always knew. I knew it from the start.”

“No, I should have said it.” His tone was regretful. “It’s better when it’s said.”

A silence descended, deep as the forest, deep as the snow that fell upon it.

“Something is different about you, Amy.” He was studying her face. “Something’s changed.”

“I think that it has, yes.”

A soft darkness was moving in from the edges. It always happened this way, like lights going down on a stage until all that remained was the two of them.

“Well, whatever it is,” he said, and grinned, “I like it.” A moment passed, then: “Did you tell Carter how sorry I was?”