Reed Coleman - Gun Church

“The dead kid.”

There was a brief silence on Meg’s end of the phone. “That’s right, the late Frank Vuchovich. You understand the value of free publicity. Well, it’s even more important now than it used to be. Publishing is about to get swept away by the social media/e-book tsunami just like the music industry got wiped out by digital downloads.”

“So what happened?”

“Haskell Brown happened. He put the kibosh on the new book. He never wanted any part of you to begin with. He was pressured by Dudek to include your books in the retro package. That was as far as Haskell was willing to go and he wasn’t very willing to go that far, if you get my meaning. He let Dudek know he would quit if push came to shove and Dudek wasn’t going to push or shove any further for you.”

“What the hell did I ever do to Haskell Brown? Did I bone his wife at a party or something?”

“Haskell’s gay.”

“What, he thinks I would have boned his wife if he were straight?”

“I told you, Kip, people here remember the Kipster. Haskell worked as an assistant editor for Moira before she died, so he heard all the dirt about you and how impossible it was for Moira to deal with you at the end. So I’ll send the rights contract down for you to sign.” It wasn’t a question.

“Nope. Tell them I want two weeks to think it over.”

“Two weeks! What the hell for?”

“Because I’m disappointed. Because I’m angry. Because I’m a foolish, self-destructive prick. Take your pick.”

“Why not ask for two months or two years?”

“Don’t give me any ideas, Meg.”

“Don’t be an asshole, Kip. You’ll blow this.”

“It won’t be the first thing I’ve fucked up, will it?”

“The list is long and apparently still growing.”

“You know the funny thing about playing chicken with me these days, Meg?”

“What’s that?”

“I’ve got nowhere else to fall and nothing left to lose.”

“Except this deal,” she said.

“No, the rights deal is something to gain, not to lose. Seems like two different things from where I’m sitting. Tell them two weeks.”

“If you promise me something.”

“Depends on what.”

“That if they call your bluff when the two weeks are over, you’ll sign.”

“I might.”

“Fuck you, Weiler.”

“I love you too, Donovan. Talk to you in fourteen days.”

Click.

I was dead quiet during most of our ride up into the hills and, for the first time since we began this routine, Jim Trimble seemed off balance. He didn’t know what to make of my sullenness or how to react to my silence. It reminded me that in spite of his big ideas and his prowess with guns, he was just a goofy kid who thought the world outside Brixton was what he saw when he surfed the net or what he’d read in the pages of my books-the poor dumb schmuck. He’d seen less of the world than Patty Duke: But Patty’s only seen the sights a girl can see from Brooklyn Heights … For weeks now, I’d acted the prized pupil to his wise and benevolent master. It didn’t feel that way today. Nothing felt the same. The falls and rapids didn’t seem quite so majestic. Yet when the kid handed me the.25 Beretta, something changed.

I took off the safety, swung the little automatic around, and put the entire clip into the trunk of a tree about thirty feet away from me. If ever there were such things as angry bullets, I’d just pumped them into that pine. I tossed the gun down in disgust as Jim ran over to the tree.

“Holy shit, Kip! Come over here and look at this. Check this out!” he said, poking his index finger in and out of the tight grouping of holes in the flesh of the tree. “It’s not like one bullet’s on top of the next, but it’s pretty damned good. Hell, you’ve never shot like that. What got into you?”

“Anger and self-loathing must do wonders for my shooting.”

He tilted his head, staring up at me like a confused puppy. “What happened to piss you off so bad?”

I’d told him previously about my conversation with Meg and about my asking for a new book contract. Jim had been totally with me-a real shocker-and thought my risking all that money was further vindication of his choosing me as the focus of his hero worship. Christ, you should have seen him. In the blink of an eye, my standing up to Stan took a backseat to my taking on the big bad world of New York publishing.

“They turned me down.”

“Who did?” he asked, still kneeling by the tree.

“Haskell Brown, the editor at Travers Legacy. They want my old books, but it looks like a new book’s out of the question.”

“He’s crazy. How could he not want a new book from you?”

Jim wasn’t putting me on either. He was utterly sincere and seemed bewildered and hurt about it. It was kind of sweet, really, to have him hurt on my behalf. Because I had managed to alienate everyone from my past who might have taken up my cause, it had been a long time since anyone felt connected to me in this way.

“It wasn’t all bad news, Jim,” I said, placing a consoling hand on his shoulder. “Brown’s boss was actually willing to give me a new book deal, but he wasn’t willing to risk losing his editor over me. I can’t blame him for that.”

“I guess not,” he said, but didn’t mean it. “So did you cave?”

“Not yet. I told my agent to tell them I needed two weeks to think it over, but I guess I’ll take the deal in the end.”

“Two weeks?”

“That’s if they don’t just call Meg tomorrow and tell the pair of us to go fuck ourselves.”

The kid’s face broke into a broad, goofy smile. “Cheer up, Kip.”

“What the fuck for?”

“Two reasons.”

“Enlighten me.”

He stood and raised his right index finger. “One: I think you’re ready for the chapel.”

“That’s a reason to run like hell, Jim, not to cheer up.”

“You’ll be fine.”

“We’ll see about that. What’s the second reason? And, please God, I hope it’s better than the first.”

“Took seven days to create the world. Just think of how many things can change in twice that time. Things will turn out all right. You’ll see.”

This time, we had only a cold wind to keep us company. When we got out of his pickup, I was distracted by the woeful groaning of the desolate hangars and by the creaks and shrill whines of the huts. Their complaints were like the laments of humpback whales. Jim seemed not to take notice. His flashlight cut careless holes in the blackness as we dragged the generator out of its storage spot. When it sputtered to life, the generator killed the mournful romance of the night.

Before we entered the hangar, Jim took me by the bicep. “Listen, this isn’t like up in the woods. This is serious. Pay real careful attention to what I’m doing and the way I do it. You’ll have to do it exactly like this or you can’t come back.”

“I understand,” I said.

That wasn’t enough for Jim. “I’m not kidding, Kip. The last time was a one-time-only thing. There aren’t second chances. Inside here, the rules always apply.”

“I get it, Jim. I do.”

He nodded with confidence, but he looked worried. This meant more to him than I realized. He couldn’t have known how important it was to me because I didn’t discuss, except in the most vague terms, what it was I was writing about. I couldn’t, not yet, maybe not ever. Haskell Brown wasn’t the only potential obstacle blocking my way. If I couldn’t get back inside the chapel, Terry McGuinn and I were fucked. Both of us would be remanded to the purgatory we’d only escaped from a month ago. Even I knew there were no words I could say that would reassure Jim. I had to perform.