Peter Abrahams - The Fan

“Relax?”

“You might consider taking some time off from work, for example.”

“I had the whole winter off,” Bobby said.

The ophthalmologist removed his hand. A Jewish guy, but not like Wald with his $100 haircuts and his mouth; more like one of those scholars in the movies, with a skull cap and gloves that kept your fingers free for writing in unheated studies.

“Have you ever seen a therapist, Mr. Rayburn?”

“Every day.”

“Every day?”

“Sure,” said Bobby; because of the rib thing. “Physio.”

The old man blinked his blue eyes. “I meant the psychological kind.”

“You’re talking about a shrink?”

“Not necessarily.”

But something like a shrink. Out of the question.

And then he remembered the radio reporter’s question: Do you feel any special pressure because of the big contract?

“I take it security’s one of your prime considerations,” the real-estate agent was saying as Bobby walked into the skylit entrance hall, his footsteps clicking on the terra-cotta, echoing through the empty house.

They turned to him, Val with a look on her face that said, You’re late, the real-estate agent hurrying forward with his hand out: “Mr. Rayburn?” That meant that like the ophthalmologist he wasn’t a fan either: fans called him Bobby. “Delighted to meet you.”

They shook hands. The real-estate agent was as tall as Bobby but much thinner; he wore the kind of flowing double-breasted suit that Wald always wore, only looked good in it. He gave his name, which Bobby didn’t catch, and said: “Just delighted.”

Delighted. Oh, Christ, Bobby thought.

Val read his reaction, he could tell from her tone when she said, “Roger was just describing the security system here.”

“State of the art, naturally,” the real-estate agent said. “The vendor had an important collection of Latin American art. A lovely Rivera used to hang right here.” He indicated the blank wall opposite the door, blank except for a small video screen beside the light switch. A message was flashing on it. Roger, following Bobby’s gaze, said, “That’s just the internal part of the system. The whole network’s plugged into the police station, the fire station, and the security company’s master control.” Roger moved toward the screen. Bobby, with his eyes, could read it from where he was: “Motion in foyer. Motion in foyer.”

They toured the house. Saw the kitchen, with its terra-cotta floor, granite countertops, stained-glass windows in the breakfast bay. “From an old church near Sienna,” Roger said. Then the living room with its enormous fieldstone hearth and windows two stories tall. And the indoor pool with the chandelier hanging over it. The master suite with another huge fireplace, a walk-in closet as big as their bedroom in California, a balcony overlooking the terrace, the outdoor pool, and the broad lawn, sloping down to the sea, two hundred feet away.

“I almost forgot,” said Roger, turning a knob on the wall. The house filled with music, deep, rich, full-classical shit, but as though the orchestra were all around them. “Wonderful, no?” Roger said.

“Yes,” said Val.

Bobby opened a door.

“Half lav,” said Roger. “Seven others, not counting the maid’s quarters.”

Bobby went in, closed the door. The music followed him: strings, woodwinds, brass, swelling all around him. He took his stance in the mirror, swung an invisible bat. Opening Day: one for four. Popped out in foul ground, K’d twice; and the grand slam in the second. Boom. Total luck-he hadn’t seen the pitch at all, just flicked the bat through the waist-high plane. The ball hit it on the screws. Total luck, but only Bobby knew. He turned on a gold tap, watched water swirl around a blue-marble sink. He saw everything clearly: the silver-and-black flecks in the marble, the changing colors pulsing through the running water. But was he seeing it with that coffee-table book clarity? He didn’t know. Relax, that was the key. He concentrated on various parts of his body: shoulders, upper back, neck, hips. He thought he felt relaxed, even in his chest, over the rib cage. The only thing he wasn’t relaxed about was not seeing the ball.

Bobby splashed water on his face, went out. The real-estate guy was talking on a cellular phone; Val was fixing her lipstick, making those funny lip shapes women do.

“I’ll show you something,” she said.

He followed her down a hall, into another room, empty except for a space station in one corner, big enough for a kid to play in. “They had grandchildren,” Val said.

“Who?”

“The owners.”

“How come they’re selling?”

“Died in a plane crash,” Val said.

Bobby didn’t like that.

“Private plane,” Val added. “I think on a ski trip.”

“What difference does that make?”

“Does what make?”

“Whether it was a private plane or not.”

“Let’s not fight, Bobby.”

Bobby walked over to the space station, sat at the control panel, pressed a button. Words appeared on a screen: “Welcome to Saturn Station U.S. 2, orbiting Titan at an altitude of fifty miles, speed 1,200 miles per hour, distance from earth 887.9 million miles, outside temperature minus 270.4 degrees Celsius, all systems go. Awaiting further instructions.”

You could qualify as an astronaut. Was that a sign? Bobby said: “You like this place?”

“I love it.”

A cheerleader from Lubbock, and now she loved a place like this. Bobby looked for signs of the cheerleader in her. She still had the great body, the blond hair, except not piled up anymore; she’d had it cut, in the style of a woman lawyer or something, although she hadn’t worked a day since they got married. Bobby didn’t care about that. Why should she work? She hadn’t worked, but was starting to look like she had; and the cheerleader was gone.

“Don’t you?” Val said.

“Don’t I what?”

“Love it.”

“This?” said Bobby. “It’s not me.”

“Why not?”

“Or you either, Val.”

“Valerie. And don’t tell me what is or isn’t me.”

The real-estate guy bounded into the room. “Ah,” he said, “Sean’s room.”

Bobby got up from the space-station console. The asshole already knew about Sean, name and everything. The screen flashed: “Unidentified object approaching at 87 degrees, 41 minutes. Approx. speed 16,000 m.p.h. Approx. distance 8,000 miles. Awaiting further instructions.” They had half an hour, Bobby thought.

“Want to visit the cellar, Mr. Rayburn? Inspect all the machinery?”

Bobby shook his head.

“State of the art,” the real-estate guy added.

“I’m sure it’s fine, Roger,” Val said. “I wouldn’t mind having a look at the outdoor pool, though.”

“Sure thing.”

He led them out back. Putting green, stone barbecue, cabana, pool.

“Twenty-five meters,” said Roger. “By-” He consulted a leatherbound notebook. “Fifteen. Heated, of course.”

“It’s not fenced in,” Val said.

“Not necessary, since the whole property is,” Roger replied, quickly adding, “but I’m sure something suitable could be designed, if it’s Sean you’re thinking about.”

The pool was empty. A whiffle-ball bat lay on the bottom. Bobby walked to the shallow end, down the stairs, across the bottom of the pool, picked it up. Roger, looking down at him, laughed and said, “Busman’s holiday?”

“Huh?”

Roger stoped laughing. Bobby got out of the pool, carrying the whiffle-ball bat. He saw the back door of the house open and Wald came out, walking fast across the lawn.

Wald handed him the Herald. “Nice poke yesterday.” The back page was a full shot of Bobby, swinging from the heels; off balance, he could tell just from the still photo. Terrible. The headline read: “Rayburn burns Birds.”