Walter Mosley - Bad Boy Brawly Brown

“Hello?” a tiny voice answered.

“Hi, Feather.”

“Hi, Daddy. Where you?”

“Down over near John’s house, baby. I have to go to this meeting, so I probably won’t get home till after you’re in the bed.”

“How come?” There was so much pain in her plea that I almost gave up on Brawly and went home.

“I’ll come in and kiss you when I get in, baby. Don’t worry.”

“Can I have hamburgers?”

“Sure. Just tell Juice.”

“Okay,” she said, forgiving me all my mistakes and flaws.

“Did Bonnie leave for the airport?” I asked.

“Uh-huh.”

“But Juice is there taking care of you?”

“Yes.”

“Good. I love you, honey,” I said.

“I love you too, Daddy.”

“Bye.”

She hung up and I felt loss that went all the way back to my childhood.

I didn’t waste the time while waiting for the First Men to get going. I went to a small diner on San Pedro and studied for the classified building supervisor’s exam. That was the next step up the ladder for me. Studying made me feel as though I still had a foot in the workaday world that Feather needed me to be a part of. She needed every day to be the same as the day before and needed something to say when her friends and teachers asked what her daddy did for a living. I became that man for a couple of hours while waiting for night to come on.

Somewhere in the middle of my third cup of coffee I remembered the dead man. That hump of skin and bones straddling the threshold of Isolda Moore’s home. His form jumped into my mind and I held it there, looking to see if I should be thinking something about it.

I didn’t feel a thing. Not concern for my fellow man who was murdered or fear for my own safety. I didn’t kill him and I doubted if anybody saw me, so it was as if I were never there.

The glass door to the Urban Revolutionaries’ storefront was open and people were milling around inside. The sun was gone but it wasn’t yet night.

The meeting room gave off a slight odor of varnish. Naked fluorescent lights glared overhead. The floor was pine and the walls were composed of cheap plasterboard paneling. There was an iron music stand against the back wall. The thirty folding chairs with reinforced cardboard seats were half filled but most of the forty-odd people in the room were too excited to sit.

The young black men and women wore dark clothes, talked and listened, posed and watched. Their voices might have seemed angry to someone who didn’t know the gruff bark of the American Negro’s soul. Those men and women were far beyond anger, though. They were expressing a desire for love and revenge and for something that didn’t exist — had never existed. That’s why they were there. They were going to create freedom out of the sow’s ear called America. They believed in the spirit of the Constitution and not the direction of the cash register.

Maybe, if I stayed there long enough, I might have believed it, too.

“You a cop?” someone asked. It took me a moment to realize that he was talking to me.

It was a skinny young cork-colored man. He wore wire-rimmed glasses and a black turtleneck shirt that wasn’t much wider in the body than it was in those extra long sleeves.

I almost laughed. “What?”

“I said, Are you a cop?”

“No.” I looked around the room, noticing that a few heads had turned toward me.

“It’s okay,” the bespectacled boy said.

“What’s okay?”

“It’s okay if you’re a cop,” he explained. “We welcome those brothers who have been brainwashed. What you’re going to find here tonight is truth. If you’re looking for bombs and guns, you’re in the wrong place. What you’re going to find are the real weapons of the revolution: education and love. That’s the revolution of the mind.” He pointed at his own skull in a gesture that reminded me of suicide.

He was nowhere near handsome, but some girl would fall in love with his eyes. He was absolutely sure of, and in love with, his own ideas.

“I’m not no cop, brother. I heard about this place down at Hambones. They said you guys do a lotta talkin’ and I decided to come on down and hear you out.” My diction and grammar slid into the form I wanted Junior to hear.

He nodded and shook my hand.

“Then welcome,” he said. His smile was uneven but brilliant like an old but well-cared-for blade. “My name’s Xavier [he pronounced it “ ex- avier”] Bodan. I’m the Party director.”

He moved away from me then, greeting his fellow members as he made his way to the front of the room. There was a bounce to his gait that accented his youth.

I wondered if he had a mother somewhere looking for him.

“What’s your name, man?” someone else asked.

This one was somewhat bigger and darker but was dressed almost the same.

“Rawlins.”

“What you doin’ here?”

“Is ev’rybody in this room gonna ask me that?” I sounded unfriendly enough to make myself clear. “’Cause you know I could just as well go up to that music stand and make a public announcement.”

This guy was about thirty, with a perfectly round head and a belly just about the same size and shape. He sneered and chewed on a large wad of gum. I think he wanted me to be scared, but he didn’t know anything outside of church or family or clubs like the Urban Party. I could tell by the way he garnered his courage that he expected to be backed up.

“Rawlins, you say?” Yet another man came from behind the gum chewer.

His skin was golden brown but everything else about him said white man. Large frame and a big square jaw that stuck straight out. His nose was slender and the only color that I could call his eyes was not exactly brown. The wavy hair had no oil in it. But he was still a black man, at least by American standards.

“Yeah,” I said.

“This ain’t no party,” the white-looking black man informed me.

“You askin’ me to leave?”

“Leave him alone, Conrad,” a woman said. She wore a black cotton dress that might have been a slip ten years earlier.

“Look at him, Tina,” the matinee idol complained.

“I am,” Tina replied. “What I see is a brother.”

Half the room was looking at me by then. Not exactly the way I liked to do business.

Conrad looked me up and down, contempt snarling in his white man’s lips and nose. But finally he shrugged his shoulders and turned away. People started talking again, giving me only quick, wondering glances.

“Hi,” the young woman that Conrad called Tina said in greeting.

“All right,” I said.

“Everybody’s worried that the police are going to send in some kind of black spy to take us down.”

“They’re right.”

Tina was suddenly wary. I didn’t want her to think badly of me. She was only pretty because of her youth, but that dress looked good on her and she had just put herself between me and a room full of potentially violent men and women.

“I don’t mean me,” I said. “I’m just sayin’ that the cops work through black spies down here. That’s the only way to find out what’s goin’ on.”

Tina hadn’t fully regained her composure. She brought her hands to her shoulders.

“I ain’t no cop,” I said. “I just wanted to take a look-see, hear what you folks got to say.”

Over Tina’s head I saw Clarissa, the waitress from Hambones, enter the room in her pink top and shorts. She saw me and frowned. Behind her came a beefy brown man who had once been the boy in a photograph I had in my pocket. They were across the room from me. Before I could decide whether to cross over to them, everybody faced the music stand. Some people clapped.

Xavier Bodan had taken his place at the makeshift podium. Behind him stood a large dignified-looking man with half straight, mostly gray hair that he combed back like a groomed lion’s mane.