Linwood Barclay - A Tap on the Window

Not that I won’t have to be coming back here. Sanders is going to go on trial. Rhonda McIntyre has cut a deal with the prosecutor to testify against him. I left him up there on that roof. Turned and walked away. I wanted to push him. Give him a little nudge with the end of the Glock. But in the end, I couldn’t do it. I asked myself, in that millisecond when I had to make my decision, whether I believed I’d feel any better two seconds later when he hit the parking lot.

I decided I probably would.

But there was something that kept me from doing it. Claire . I couldn’t do it to Claire. I couldn’t kill her father. I could see him charged, I could see testifying against him, and I could see him going to prison. And I could see her having to deal with all of that, with the support of her mother.

But I couldn’t see her dealing with her father’s death.

There’d been too many deaths.

So now I’m figuring out what to do. It will almost certainly mean moving somewhere. If not Promise Falls, then Timbuktu for all I know. In the meantime, I have to start going through everything in the house. What to save, what to pitch.

I can’t keep everything.

In the days after Donna’s death, I didn’t touch her things on the coffee table. I guess I avoided them. Looking at her drawings of Scott, it just hurt too much. It wasn’t until after Sanders had been arrested that I had the time, and the strength, to sift through the items.

I picked up her folder of drawings, weighed it in my hand. So many sketches. I dropped it back on the coffee table, opened it up and a couple of pencils rolled out and landed on the floor.

There was a drawing on top. A sketch of Scott, of course, but with a yellow sticky note attached to it. I read the note, and looked at the sketch.

She’d gotten the nose right. I liked the way she’d captured the wisps of hair that fell across this forehead. At first I thought the lips were a bit too full, but the more I looked I realized I was wrong. Some shading had thrown me off.

I guess Donna was intending to leave this one out for me. Maybe when I’d come home after she’d gone to bed.

She had written on the sticky note, in pencil: “Cal, I think this is the one. I’m done. What do you think?”

She’d always said she would stop when she believed she couldn’t do another drawing that would be any better.

“It’s perfect,” I said.

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