Alex Berenson: The Shadow Patrol

The house at the end of the flagstone driveway was wide and brick and faced west toward the Bitterroot Mountains. It had two chimneys and a three-car garage. It looked… in truth, it looked like a nice place to live. Like it had a den filled with books that had actually been read and a refrigerator stuffed with leafy green vegetables. John Wells hadn’t gotten inside and he was already feeling defensive.

Though the flagstone was a bit much.

Wells rolled up the driveway, which turned to asphalt beside the house. A thickly padded pillar supported a regulation-size basketball backboard. A teenage boy faced the hoop. He dribbled the ball between his hands like a three-card-monte dealer hiding an ace. He was maybe six-foot-two and, despite the cool fall air, wore only knee-length white shorts and a blue Boise State T-shirt. As Wells drove up the flagstone, the kid stepped back and launched a fadeaway jumper. It traced an easy arc and dropped through the net.

Wells parked his rental Kia a few feet from the boy and grabbed the bouquet of orchids and lilies he’d bought in downtown Missoula. He didn’t want to open the door, but after a couple seconds he forced himself out.

The boy kept dribbling, skittering the ball between his legs. He was still growing into his body. His chest was flat, but his calves and forearms were thick with muscle. He had Wells’s deep brown eyes and solid nose, and his hair was long and straight and pulled back in a ponytail. He launched another fadeaway jumper, this one just short. Wells collected the rebound.

“You must be Evan.” You must be my son. Though I’m more or less guessing, since I haven’t seen you since you were a baby.

“I must be.”

“I’m John.” Wells stepped in for a hug, but the boy took a quick half step back and extended a hand.

“Nice to meet you.” Evan spoke softly, his words clipped flat. No hint of emotion. He sounded like a state trooper talking to a driver he’d pulled over for speeding. Without affect, the psychiatrists said. Though not without effect. Wells watched his son watching him. He supposed he’d earned that voice.

“Practicing your jumper.”

“Actually working on my dunks.”

“Right.”

Evan cocked his head at the flowers. “Those for me? I’m more into roses as a rule.”

“Noted.”

Evan dribbled twice, threw up a fadeaway. This time the ball clanged off the front of the rim and bounced at Wells, who laid the flowers on the ground and corralled it.

“Coach tried to get me interested in ninth grade, but football was more my game,” Wells said. “Now I wish I’d listened to him. All those hits add up. I still feel some of them.” Though Wells was lying. He wouldn’t have traded football for anything. He’d loved the sport’s raw power, its velocity and contact. War without death.

He spun the basketball in his hands, dribbled once, flung up a jumper. The ball bounced off the back rim. Evan grabbed it and tucked it under his arm, an oddly adult gesture, as if he were in charge and Wells the teenager. His self-possession impressed Wells.

“You should probably tell my mom you’re here.”

“Sure.” Wells turned to the house as Heather — his ex-wife — opened the door. Her hair, once a light honey brown, was streaked with gray and cut short, just above her shoulders. She and Wells had divorced barely a year after Evan was born, when Wells left them to go undercover in Afghanistan and infiltrate al-Qaeda for the first time. These were the prehistoric days before September 11. Wells had seen Heather only once since. Now he crossed the driveway and the stairs and hugged her. She hesitated and then reached for him and stretched her arms around his back. She was tiny, half his size. “You look great,” he said.

“You lie.”

“Never.”

“Fairly often, I suspect. But come on in anyway.”

“What about…” Wells nodded at the side of the house, where Evan was once again shooting jumpers.

“Let him be. He’ll come in on his own once he sees us talking.”

SHE LED HIM THROUGH a house that was as handsome as Wells had imagined from the outside. The American dream alive and well in three dimensions. The pictures stung the most. Heather had remarried, a lawyer named Howard. They had two children, George and Victoria — Wells had looked up their names this morning. Family photos covered every wall. Victoria playing soccer. Evan spinning a basketball on his index finger. George standing on the Golden Gate Bridge. The five of them somewhere in Mexico or Central America, standing on a ruin, grinning.

Wells knew that the photos weren’t for him. They’d been up long before he arrived. But he couldn’t help feeling they were meant as an object lesson, a reminder of the life he’d traded away. Though he was probably fooling himself. Probably this life had never been open to him.

“They’re beautiful. All of them.”

“Thank you.”

“And they get along?”

“You know, they’re kids, they fight, but the fact that Evan has a different dad, that’s never part of it. At least as far as I know.”

“That’s great.” What about me? Wells wanted to ask. Does he ever ask about me? Even in his head, the question sounded impossibly self-centered.

Heather put Wells’s flowers in a glass pitcher and they sat at a marble-topped island in the kitchen. She didn’t ask whether he wanted anything to drink or eat, a reminder that he wasn’t truly welcome.

“Howard’s not around? Or the kids?”

“At the mall. And then a movie. I think something in three-D.”

“I’d like to meet them.”

“No, you wouldn’t.”

“Give me a little credit.”

“I know you, that’s all.”

Her certainty nettled Wells. “What do you know?”

“You’re very goal-oriented, John. ‘Must reconnect with son.’” Heather delivered that last sentence in a mock Terminator voice. “‘Building family ties, very important. Highest priority.’”

Wells nearly flared up, said something like, Still bitter after all these years. But he hadn’t come this far to argue. “I don’t even think of you as an ex anymore, Heather. We’ve been apart so much longer than we were together.”

“Another way of saying you only called to see Evan.”

“It’s another way of saying I hope we can be friends.”

“Sure, John. Friends.” She nodded at the absurdity of the idea. “I want you to know I don’t regret anything about us anymore, John. You gave me that boy and that’s plenty.”

“Why’d you let me come, then?”

“Wasn’t my choice. When you called, I asked Evan what he wanted, and he wanted to see you. And he’s old enough to decide for himself.” She plucked out an orchid from the bouquet, twirled it in her fingertips so its delicate scent bloomed. “So how’s D.C.?”

“I haven’t been there in months. Like I told you, I quit—”

“Officially. But that doesn’t mean anything, right? And especially not for you.”

“It does and it doesn’t,” Wells said, thinking about his last mission. Even though he’d been working privately, he’d used the CIA. And vice versa. “It adds a level of complexity. But anyway I’m mostly up in New Hampshire these days.”

“With the new girlfriend.”

“Her name’s Anne. And yes.”

“She’s a cop, you said?”

“Correct.”

“You going to make an honest woman of her?”

“She doesn’t need me to make her an honest woman.”

“Same old John. You must be bored. You always loved playing on the front lines of history.”

Wells couldn’t tell whether she was being ironic. “That’s not how it feels.”