Janwillem De Wetering: The Hollow-Eyed Angel

After he showed them the basement, Charlie had told the detectives that Teddy had complained about Termeer's insistence on sadistic/masochistic acts that, even for good money, were too painful. "The man is a meanie," Teddy said.

Teddy had also seen boys enter by Termeer's separate entrance and had tried to warn them off, but the boys had to finance their habits. Charlie finally learned why Kali whined and growled when Termeer was entertaining company in his part of the building.

Charlie told the detectives that, after having listened to Teddy, he had checked Termeer's premises, using his duplicate keys.

"We heard that you sometimes helped Termeer with his holy book mail-order business," the commissaris said. "But you say you had no idea of what was going on in the basement?"

Charlie said that he hadn't spent much time with Termeer in the last few years, that his fantasy of working with a kindred spirit had come to an end long ago. Termeer, although maybe able to perceive further than most, had turned out to be dour, twisted into himself, hardly civil most of the time, moody, even boring.

"You were unaware of Termeer's dark side?"

Charlie had no idea until he lunched with Teddy at New Noodletown in the Bowery.

"Recendy?"

"Yes."

"How long before Termeer died?"

Charlie calculated. "A week? Ten days?"

"You confronted your tenant?"

Charlie had been considering a confrontation, but then there was no need.

"Where were you when Termeer died?"

Charlie said that he might have been in the park, or else on his way home. The park had been too busy that day.

"Did you see Termeer in the park that Sunday morning?"

"Yes."

"Did you talk to him?"

"No."

"Why did you inquire about Termeer at the Central Park Precinct the next day?"

Because, Charlie said, Kali had been restless all night, pacing and whining. Charlie himself also had a bad feeling. He had let himself into Termeer's part of the building early the next morning. There was no one there, which was unusual because Termeer enjoyed his water bed and liked to sleep late.

"Why," asked de Gier, "did you tell us Termeer's death had to happen?"

Charlie sighed. "Because he couldn't allow his personality to corrupt itself further."

"He didn't kill himself, did he?"

"No."

"He was killed?"

"Yes."

"Did you kill him?"

"No." Charlie smiled. "No, I didn't. I wouldn't kill anyone. I will not defend the world by using violence. I prefer escaping."

"Really?" the commissaris asked. "You don't say. What if you couldn't escape any further? You would jump, would you?"

Charlie smiled. "But of course."

"And you wouldn't take anyone with you? A few bad guys? To feel better?"

"Nah," Charlie said. He shrugged. "Fuck the bad guys."

De Gier was still pursuing his original line of reasoning. "Why didn't you kill Bert Termeer? There was your immense disappointment in a man you had sponsored, there was fury, there was opportunity, you're a very intelligent man, Mr. Perrin, you could have come up with some excellent plan, you…"

Charlie said he had been thinking of calling the cops, of showing them Termeer's basement.

"What if the cops took no action?"

But they would have, Charlie said.

Charlie's fatal attack on his tenant, the commissaris thought in the Cavendish bathtub, would have been planned carefully.

Charlie knew Termeer would be freezing and frolicking in the park that Sunday morning. Charlie would know about Termeer's bad heart. A performing Termeer would be vulnerable. All Charlie had to do was hover about, wait for the crowd to focus its attention elsewhere, grab Termeer, drag him into the bushes, yell accusations in his face, shake Termeer violently, terrify him until he suffered a heart attack.

There were the dentures, found at some distance from Termeer's corpse. The dentures flew out of Termeer's mouth as he was crying, begging for forgiveness…

Good luck comes to those who are lucky, the commissaris thought, letting more hot water into his tub by twisting the faucet with an extended toe. There was Maggie's big chestnut horse kicking Termeer as an unexpected preliminary.

Now came the theory's weak part.

The commissaris agreed with de Gier that Charlie could be excused for wanting to punish a child pornographer posing as a prophet. Shaking and slapping? Okay. Castrating a former friend?

And again, the commissaris thought, good luck comes to those who are lucky. The corpse was robbed by a derelict, then partly eaten by animals.

No witnesses, wounds, clothes, prints, traces.

"Let it go, sir," de Gier had said during the return trip on the subway. "We have no jurisdiction. The local police are hung up on another theory. All the evidence is long gone. Our suspect is intelligent, unwilling to confess, sympathetic. The victim was mad and bad."

"And dead anyway."

The commissaris couldn't see himself bothering Paulie Potock, one of the few Jewish children to survive the Nazi atrocities in Poland. After the basement revelation, back in Charlie's artistically pleasing environment, the commissaris had inquired into Charlie's painful past and the source of his present comforts.

Charlie talked easily, breaking out the cookies again. "Japanese," Charlie said. "Advanced food. There is a nice store in SoHo. Seaweed is the future."

"How did you get out of Poland, sir?"

The detectives saw Paulie, together with forty-eight other Jewish Polish little kids, guarded by two SS men, march, with a few surviving mothers, to Nowogrodziec Railway Station.

March 1945: The Russian Third Army was close. The Nazis were emptying out all death camps. A train waited. Boxcars closed off with barbed wire were to take the Jews to Germany to be killed, but Soviet war planes dived and set the train on fire.

It had been snowing heavily. The children and the mothers marched in singe file. Paulie was trying not to drag his bad leg. The mother up front sang out: "One, two, three."

In order to obey the guards but to delay reaching the platform, where, because of the train not taking them to Germany, all prisoners would surely be shot, the column moved forward on "one" and "two" but stepped back on "three."

The SS men, older soldiers, tired too, stumbled along.

The German forces had long since run out of motor fuel.

The SS men disappeared into the woods when they heard a rumble of powerful engines.

The column stopped when black spots appeared on the eastern snow-covered plain.

The spots were little tanks that grew in size as they came nearer.

The huge tanks stopped close to the standing column. From the tank turrets jumped older kids, Russian tank soldiers.

The Jewish Polish kids were in the eight-to-nine-year-old age group and the Russian soldier kids were in the fourteen-to-fifteen-year-old age group.

March 1945: The Russian army had lost ten million young and middle-aged male and female soldiers. Old folks manufactured deadly equipment to be handled by kids.

Once liberated, Paulie, without relatives but knowing by now how to take care of himself, lived here and there, and finally moved to America. He worked in a bank. He received money from the new Germany government, Wiedergutmachungs Funding, "money to make good," a fairly large amount that he invested profitably. He also went crazy. He was institutionalized for depression. A Chinese-American psychiatric nurse suggested the patient should write a list of things he liked, and brought him a new pencil and a sheet of white paper, which Paulie destroyed.

Every day the nurse brought fresh paper and another new pencil, which Paulie tore up and broke, until, one pleasant morning, there was a sparrow on his windowsill. Charlie watched the sparrow, then wrote his list of Nice Things to Do. Watching seals off the Maine Coast would be nice. Having a dog would be nice. Starting his own growth fund would be nice. Owning lots of private space would be nice. Arranging temporarily owned objects would be nice. Laying an assorted hardwood floor- changing his name-working out in Central Park-would be nice. It would be nice to speculate as to what would happen (Charlie had read some Nietzsche by then, and tried to follow existentialism) to his state of mind if he removed the concept of selfishness from cynicism.