Peter Corris: The Reward

The note was a newspaper cut-out job, right?

No. It was typed by me on an IBM Selectric thats now at the bottom of the harbour around from Mrs Macquaries Chair.

Go on.

I couldnt believe it when the money wasnt paid. I mean I hated them and I knew they hated me, but

Hold on, do you mean your father and mother or just Sean and Estelle?

The whole lot of them! My father was a pig! He raped Estelle, thats why his first wife left him. But he had the money to make it too hard for her to do anything about it. He tried it with me but Gabrielle stopped him. Dont think she was protecting meshe was just jealous.

This is all hard to believe. Joshua Beckett put up a big reward.

Sure. That made him look good, didnt it? And dont tell me investing it made it any more serious. He was probably just so busy making money in other directions that he forgot to pull the reward money out before he died.

Proof, I said. Some proof.

She stood, took off her jacket and draped it over the back of the chair. The sleeves of her silk blouse were loose and caught at the wrists, a style Ramona Beckett had favoured. She took two steps towards me and put out her right hand. I havent got any moles or birthmarks as you very well know, but take hold of my hand.

Against my better judgment I did.

Do you remember the first thing you said to me when we met in that restaurant?

I shook my head. I was still holding her hand.

You said, Your hands so cold, Ramona. You remarked on it afterwards, too, when I grabbed your cock.

Impossible to forget. I remembered that her touch was icy. But this womans was many degrees warmer.

Your hands not cold.

It was the drugs. I was on so many things.

She broke the contact and sat down. Still not convinced?

Go on with the story, I said. I glanced at my watch. Weve got a bit of time. Thats if youre really planning to come to Wollstonecraft.

Of course Im coming! This is harder than I thought itd be. I get the feeling youve never changed in your whole life. That youve always been this hard, cynical type with just enough of a sense of humour to make you human.

I finished my wine and thought about the Scotch. Whats that got to do with anything?

I changed, Cliff. I really did. Holed-up in that dump in St Kilda, I really hit rock bottom. First thing was I got hold of some really bad coke. Id been used to the very best stuff up here and this was dreadful. God knows what it was cut with but it nearly sent me nuts. So, of course, I decided to get off it. Have you ever used coke, Cliff?

No.

Wise man. Dont. And dont let anyone tell you its not addictive. In a pigs eye it isnt. I had the worst time and it wasnt helped by my knowing that no-one in my family thought I was worth

How much?

Two hundred grand. Not a hell of a lot. I had that much and more already. God, I suppose I was testing them in the only way I knew how. Hey, Im not asking for sympathy here. Im just trying to be accurate, all right?

The amount checks out, I said quietly. But you could still have got that from Ramona herself.

Yes, I suppose so. Well, I guess you wont be convinced until Gabriella gives me the nod.

You use her first name.

Always did. Youll see. Are you going to tell me who intercepted the note and thought it was OK for me to go down where I put the typewriter?

Id felt tension building up in my body from the moment shed arrived. It was partly sexual, of course, she was putting out the kinds of signals Ramona had, but now I was confused because Claudias flags had spelled out pretty much the same message. But it could still all have been a carefully constructed act.

Is that what this is all about?

What else? Thats why I came back. Thats why you and I are here like this. I know youve been to see Leo Grogan so youve got an idea of how I started out. I knew from painful experience that you were good at what you did, Cliff. I knew youd be able to dig up the truth if you had a little help.

You hated me, I said. As soon as I spoke I realised that the statement was an implicit acceptance of her story. I couldnt take it back, but I could watch her reaction closely.

I dont hate you any more, she said. Wed better go, hadnt we?

I didnt learn anything from that. She put her empty glass on the nearest flat surface, stood and shrugged back into her jacket. She did it matter-of-factly enough, but that only made the erotic touchesthe rise of her breasts and the athletic flex of her shouldersall the more emphatic. At that moment I didnt care who she was, Ramona, Claudia, Madonna. I just wanted her physically the way an adolescent wants the first girl wholl let him touch her inside her clothes. But I was a long way past adolescence. I hooked my own jacket from the stair post.

Ill tell you what you want to know when Im convinced, I said.

Fair enough.

And when Max and Penny are convinced.

No fair.

Youve spent too long in America.

Youre right. Your car or mine?

I stopped the tape and removed the cassette. Both, I said.

She was driving a Falcon about twenty years younger than mine and I only saw her for the first few minutes. She drove fast, quickly leaving me behind and I was happy to tootle along trying to make sense of what shed told me. It held together reasonably well if you accepted certain of her propositionsthe dysfunctional nature of the family, her drug habit and its aftermathbut it certainly needed more glue. Why had she gone to the States and why had she stayed? More importantly, why had she come back and taken this tortuous route to enlightenment?

She was standing outside the Beckett place when I drew up. I sucked in a breath at the sight of her, alluring in the black leather with a street light a little further down the road giving her a long, slender shadow. A high-top taxi pulled up and Max and Penny went through their routine. I stood beside the leather-clad woman and watched.

Are they an item? she said.

As of today.

Thats nice. Max and Penny, right?

Right. Max is stone deaf but he wont have any trouble following you if he can see your mouth.

Can he sign?

What?

The wheelchair was purring towards us now and she waited until it was close before moving into the patch of light and making gestures with her hands. Max stopped abruptly. The wheelchair kept going for a few metres before Penny stopped it. Max was moving his hands as if he was knitting.

She speaks sign, Max said. Is this Claudia Vardon?

Ramona Beckett, she said. I only know a little bit. Polite stuff.

Penny watched with a frozen face as they exchanged a few more signs. She swivelled around and looked at me. Who is she?

I shrugged. She says shes Ramona Beckett.

Do you believe her?

I want to see what Mrs Beckett says. A mother should know, wouldnt you say?

Max had regained his composure. He extended a hand and he and Claudia/Ramona shook formally. This is Penny Draper, Ms Vardon, he said. Where did you learn to sign?

In a very good hospital in California. They did everything to rehabilitate accident victims Braille, sign

Are we going in, Cliff? Penny said. Its cold out here for those of us without thousand-dollar leather jackets.

After getting the all-clear at the gate, Max and I manhandled the wheelchair up the steps to the house. The small dark woman let us in and we wheeled and trooped through to the room where Gabriella Beckett and Wallace Cavendish had received me before. Max and Penny went in first and I followed. Mrs Beckett was sitting in the same chair, wearing the same dress and expression. Cavendish had changed almost out of recognition. His hair and suit, both formerly immaculate, were rumpled and his striped club tie was askew.

Mrs Beckett reached into the bag on her lap and took out a pair of silver-rimmed spectacles. She put them on and scanned the group of visitors.