John Lutz - Torch

“The note I didn’t read didn’t say much,” Carver said. He’d found it stuck between the pages of the Bible in Mark Winship’s lap, and had indeed read it before phoning the Del Moray police. In what was presumably Mark Winship’s handwriting it said simply, I die by my own hand, with grief and regret , and was signed , Mark Winship. “Was it written with the pen in his shirt pocket?”

“You mean you didn’t match ink colors?” McGregor asked.

Carver smiled. The ink color of note and pen had matched.

“If it wasn’t that this guy committed suicide,” McGregor said, “I’d find a way to hang a murder charge on you.”

Which meant the gun in Winship’s hand had fired the death bullet, and paraffin tests indicated the dead man had squeezed the trigger.

The pink tip of McGregor’s tongue peeked out between his widely spaced front teeth like an evil little internal serpent. “The interesting thing is what probably drove him to kill himself. His wife got herself run over by a truck yesterday. Stupid cunt stepped right out in front of it, and splat! Or so the story goes.”

“So he was grieving over his dead wife,” Carver said, “and the strain got to him.” He never shared knowledge with McGregor unless it was absolutely necessary. McGregor saw knowledge as power and seldom failed to use it in the most heinous way. It was too late for power to corrupt McGregor, but he could certainly corrupt power.

“The thing is”-the tongue probed obscenely-“the wife was having a drink with you just before she ran out on the highway and tried to hug a speeding semi. That makes me curious.”

“Why?”

“Because you’re involved, fuck-face. And because the double suicide of a Del Moray couple with an address in my jurisdiction suggests that there’s more to the story than an unhappy marriage gone wild. The department makes assessments for promotion in two months, and I’m being considered. Next step is captain, then chief, and don’t think it isn’t a possibility. I don’t want anything making waves in my jurisdiction, messing up my chances. For now, it’d be best for me, and for you, if there was nothing evil going down.”

“So something evil might move up,” Carver said.

“You betcha.”

“At least you’re honest about it.”

“I’m not honest about anything!” McGregor sounded genuinely offended. “All I am is legal.”

“And not even all the time.”

McGregor aimed his jut-jawed, lewd grin at Carver. “If I gotta swim in this ocean, I’m gonna be a shark. That bother you, guppy?”

“Only when you enjoy it.”

“Well, then be bothered, cause I always fucking enjoy it. I’ve adapted, just like Darwin said always happens with the strong, and you haven’t. We both know the world is shit-difference is, you kid yourself there’s something better than shit, while I don’t. In fact, I gotta admit I love to roll in it.”

“It’s rubbed off,” Carver observed.

Still grinning, McGregor picked up a sharp pencil and made a little jabbing motion in the direction of Carver’s heart. Kidding, but there was malice in his eyes. “What’d you and the late Donna Winship talk about yesterday?”

“Nothing important. Weather, sports . . .”

“Tell me straight, Carver, or I’m gonna make sport of you.”

“You sound as if you’re investigating a double murder. Is there some doubt that either of the Winships was a suicide?”

“Sorry, that’s police business.”

“Is this conversation police business?”

“It ain’t social. Not with a pus-bag like you.”

“Then there must be something big happening under your nose, and you don’t understand it so you’re upset and taking it out on me. I guess I should call my lawyer.”

McGregor stared at him with a look that could melt titanium.

“Do I get my phone call?” Carver asked.

Slowly McGregor unfolded his long body until he was standing at full height behind the desk, looming over Carver. “What you get, fuck-face, is outa this office. Now.”

Carver waited a few deliberate seconds. Saving face, as it were. Then he leaned on his cane and stood up.

“That’s better,” McGregor said with satisfaction. “It’d be wise of you to be on your best behavior for a while. And don’t think I won’t be watching you and your dark-meat cunt.”

Carver didn’t answer. He knew McGregor was trying to provoke a show of rage. McGregor fed on that kind of thing. He lived to jerk people’s strings, to make any kind of unpleasant impact in their lives. It was his charming way of communicating.

At the door, Carver paused and turned around, his blood racing but his expression calm.

“You finally got yourself a window,” he said, looking around the drab green room, “but this sure isn’t the office of a guy who’ll ever be chief.”

McGregor said something to him as he left and closed the door behind him, but it made little sense to Carver even if it was intensely personal. It was language you seldom heard even at the movies.

That afternoon Beth said, “McGregor’s the worst kind of cop there is. Corrupt and admits it, so he stays on the safe side of the line while he’s messing up other people’s lives.”

“He doesn’t admit it to everyone,” Carver said, “only the people he’s sure already know.”

“That has to be a growing number.”

“But it hasn’t grown large enough yet. It probably never will. He’ll see to that. Survival of the fittest, he’d call it. Cops like McGregor retire secretly wealthy.”

“And unbothered by conscience.”

“But he’ll probably be haunted by the opportunities he missed,” Carver said. “That can be worse than a conscience for a guy like McGregor.”

They were seated on stools at the breakfast counter in Carver’s beach cottage, eating tuna-salad sandwiches and drinking beer. Neither of them much liked to cook; this was a typical meal when they ate in. Carver had been home for a while, seated on the porch with his good leg propped on the rail and watching the sea, thinking. Beth had been out scrounging up facts about her wayward mail-order company, and had returned fifteen minutes ago for lunch and to use her word processor.

“So don’t get involved with McGregor,” she said. “I don’t want him messing around in our lives.”

Carver removed the top slice of rye from his sandwich and added mayonnaise. Better. He chewed tuna salad, swallowed and took a sip of Budweiser. Then he swiveled slightly on his stool so he could look past the silhouetted planters with their dangling vines, hanging by chains in the wide window. The ocean was choppy today and seemed to rise toward the horizon so that it was higher than the roof of the cottage. It appeared vast and ominous. Far out near the horizon, a large ship sat seemingly motionless in the haze. An oil tanker, Carver thought.

“Fred?”

“McGregor and I agree on a few things,” he said.

“I’m sorry to hear that.”

“The Winship suicides don’t feel right.”

“Hell, no, they don’t! Does a pair of suicides ever feel right?”

“I mean, there’s a lot more to them than what’s on the surface.”

“Why should you care?”

“I don’t know, but I do care.”

“That’s just one of the ways you’re not like McGregor,” she said around a bite of sandwich. “But there’s nothing in it for you if you keep poking around, using up your time.”

“You know better.”

“Sure. I meant monetarily. Course, that thousand-dollar check might still cash without any trouble, especially if you get to the bank on time. And you’ve done some investigating and put your ass on the line, kind of earned it.” She licked mayonnaise from a long, red-nailed finger and smiled. “Think of that, lover.”