Bill Pronzini - Hellbox

PETE BALFOUR

They shouldn’t of kept making fun of him like that. Not like that.

It was all Ned Verriker’s fault. Bastard shouldn’t of hung that label around his neck like a goddamn dead bird. That was what took it right over the line.

Bad enough, all the crap Balfour’d had to take most of his life about the way he looked. Man couldn’t help the face he was born with, could he? But he’d got so he could stand the ragging pretty well, even joke about it himself when he’d had a few. Like the night at the Miners Club when he was half in the bag and he come out and said he hadn’t had a woman in so long he’d started carrying a picture of his right hand around in his wallet. Everybody got a good laugh out of that. Hell, he’d joined right in that night, and again the time somebody asked him if he was still dating old Five Fingers.

But after a while, when he was alone at night in his house, he didn’t think that was funny, neither. Plain damn truth. Only woman he’d ever laid that he hadn’t had to pay for was Charlotte, his ex-wife, and she’d been lousy in bed. Weighed more than he did, too, and had a face like a foot. Plus a mouth that never stayed shut. Nag, nag, nag the whole eighteen months they were married. Banner day when she walked out on him after the last of their fights, wearing a black eye and a smashed nose. He hadn’t missed her one minute since.

The way he figured it now, he’d never have another woman except a second-class whore. Just too butt-ugly. No getting away from it-there were mirrors in the house, he saw his reflection in store windows, he knew what he looked like. Short, puffy body on stubby legs, not much chin, mouth like a gaffed bass, knobby head with a patch of hair like moss growing on a tree stump. Somebody’d said that to him once, someplace or other. “You know something, Pete? You got a head looks like moss growing on a fuckin’ tree stump.”

Mostly it hadn’t bothered him, how he looked. And for a long time, he’d figured his life was tolerable enough. No real friends except for Bruno, and that was just because he fed and watered the dog and knew how to handle him. Treat a pit bull right and he’d lick your hand; treat him wrong and he’d tear your throat out. But that was all right, he didn’t need anybody to hang around with except a few half-assed drinking and poker and bowling buddies now and then. He liked his house, a fixer-upper he’d turned into a real livable place with his own two hands. He liked working construction and being his own boss. He liked hunting and camping in the backwoods, and collecting guns, and shooting pool, and watching baseball on TV, and bowling a few lines at Freedom Lanes and playing stud at Henson’s Card Room, and watching martial arts’ flicks on the tube, and reading a Louis L’Amour western if he was in the mood for a good book. And when he got horny, well, he could drive down to Sacramento and spend thirty or forty bucks on a teenage hooker, or if he didn’t feel like making the effort, he had his collection of porn videos, and he could go on the Internet and surf through the porn sites.

But sometimes, even before that night at the Buckhorn six weeks ago, it all backed up on him like a clogged septic system. More and more, he felt like hitting something, breaking something out of sheer frustration. Wished he was still married to Charlotte so he could beat the crap out of her again. Times like those, he knew how much his life here sucked. Really sucked.

It got so he couldn’t stand the thought that things would go on pretty much as they always had for him, one day the same as another right up until he croaked. Weekdays working his construction jobs, working his little scams, and when he knocked off it’d be the Miners Club or the Buckhorn or Freedom Lanes or Henson’s, and then home to watch a DVD or fool around online and then straight to bed. Weekends watching a ball game, sipping some brews, playing poker, playing pool, playing with his computer, playing with himself. Sure, he was used to it and he was better off than a lot of poor, jobless bastards living on welfare or sleeping on the streets, but that didn’t make it any less boring.

Only then it stopped being boring and got ugly instead.

He remembered that night like it was yesterday. Friday night, and he’d been drinking Bud and shooting pool with three of the Buckhorn regulars. Just happened to wander in there that night and Frank Ramsey couldn’t find nobody else to partner up, so he’d got asked and he figured, why not, it’d give him a chance to show up Verriker. Two of them never got along. Verriker thought he was funny as hell, a regular stand-up comedian, always cracking stupid jokes at somebody else’s expense, even when he was at work at Builders Supply. Holier than thou, too. Drunk Friday and Saturday nights, first one in church on Sunday morning. Didn’t like the way Balfour Construction did business and told him so more than once. Like he never cut a few corners in his life. Man has a right to live the best way he can and he don’t need anybody else trying to tell him how to do it.

That afternoon, he’d finished the repairs on old Mrs. Evans’ sunporch, and she’d paid him in cash like he asked her, and he was feeling good. So he thought the hell with Verriker and stayed put in the Buckhorn to celebrate. He’d’ve got out of there damn quick if he’d had any idea what Verriker was gonna do to him.

Other two in the group were Ramsey and Tony Lucchesi, with Ernie Stivic, who didn’t know a pool cue from a golf club, kibitzing. Balfour had always got along with Ramsey, and Lucchesi was all right for a dago, even if he was a lousy barber. Didn’t like Stivic much better than he did Verriker. Fry cook at the Burgers and More greasy spoon, asked him once if he knew the difference between a hamburger and a Polack burger, just kidding around, and Stivic got right in his face and threatened to bust his arm if he said “Polack” again. Two of the same, him and Verriker. Smart guys that didn’t care about nobody but themselves.

It was about nine o’clock when they switched from partners Rotation to one-on-one Eight-Ball. Verriker’s idea. When he was half in the bag, he thought he was Fast Eddie Felson. Fact was, none of them shot a better stick than Pete Balfour, so it was him Verriker challenged first. He smoked the bugger for five bucks and pissed him off. Verriker claimed he moved the cue ball on one of his shots, but none of the others saw it. He moved it, all right, but he never did see no reason why a man shouldn’t have an edge if he could take it. That went double against a prick like Verriker.

Well, they played and drank and talked the way you do in bars. Pro football, a game he never liked much-too violent. A few jokes from Verriker, none of them funny no matter what the rest thought. Politics. Verriker and Lucchesi were bleeding hearts, and wouldn’t you just figure on that? Him, he hated the politicians on all sides, except maybe for the Tea Baggers-some of them made sense. The rest… always raising taxes and passing bullshit laws that made it harder for a man to live. Always trying to take away your civil rights, like the right to own and carry guns.

Work was another topic they got into, and Balfour was just enough in his cups to tell how he’d phonied up an invoice to make an extra thousand on time and materials off old lady rich-bitch Evans. Didn’t see no reason why he shouldn’t talk about it; it was a good trick and a good story, and besides, he knew it’d piss Verriker off. It did, all right. Verriker said, “Suppose I tell Mrs. Evans what you did.” Balfour said, “Suppose I tell your boss you like young boys.” Verriker got hot, called him a dirty son of a bitch and said how about they go outside so he could kick some Balfour ass. He worked up a laugh, said he was only kidding around about the young boys, said he’d lied about screwing Mrs. Evans, even though it was the plain truth. He wasn’t a coward, but Verriker had twenty pounds and ten years on him, and he knew he’d get his clock cleaned if he fought him. Pete Balfour’s mama didn’t raise no damn fools.