Timothy Hallinan - The Man With No Time

“Blood is thicker than money.” I stuck the tip of my tongue into the coffee and pulled it out fast. “Anyway, they'd kill him on sight, and he knows it.”

Horace ran the nails of his free hand over his jeans with a sound that made the hair on my arms stand on end. “I don't know.”

I found I was furious. “And I don't know about you.”

He looked astonished. “Me?”

“What the hell did you think you were doing?”

His face slammed shut, and for the first time since I'd met him Horace turned into the inscrutable Oriental. He squeezed his cup, making it bulge perilously. “I don't want to talk about it.”

“Too bad. I do. You know, I do this shit, or something like it, for a living, remember? I'm sure some mathematician could express my death as a probability factor. Well, okay, so I can die. I'm nobody's father, and as much as I love Eleanor, I'm nobody's husband. You're both.”

“Barely,” Horace said between his teeth.

“Tell it to the kids,” I said, not caring whether it sounded brutal.

“I don't talk to the kids,” Horace said tightly. “Pansy talks to the kids, Pansy's their window on the world. She explains to them about why Daddy's never home, because he's out selling real estate in the daytime and pumping gas at night, like they can understand. And then, when I get home and they're asleep, she talks to me about how they miss me and how she should get a job like she had before when she was taking pictures and how my mother tells them one thing when she's told them another, and they don't know what to do. Well, i don't know what to do, either. My home life feels like a … a maze that's all blind alleys.” He took a gulp of coffee and gasped steam. “Holy Jesus.”

I watched him unsympathetically as he fanned his mouth with his free hand. “So let Pansy get a job.”

“Right,” he said, sowing scorn right and left. “Eight hours a day out of the house. She leaves the room for thirty seconds, the kids cry. My mother moves to Vegas, the kids ask where's Grandma. I'm sure they think God is a Chinese woman of forty-seven, midway between Pansy and my mother. And I'm busting my butt to pay the electric bill.”

“God, that's terrible,” I said. “You're jealous of your own wife and mother. And you're a Chinese male chauvinist, to boot.”

“Jealous!” He did the thing with the fingernails on his jeans again and then put his hand on my wrist. “You don't know what you're talking about.”

Well, I didn't. I'd never had kids. I blinked, lost for a moment, and he withdrew his hand.

“So maybe a little,” he said in a muffled voice.

“Not much,” I said soothingly.

“Aaahhh,” he said, shaking his head in small swings, like if he turned it too far it would yank his body after it.

“And your mother-”

“Pansy can deal with her, now,” he said. “She sent her home.” His eyes came up to me, and he looked like the old Horace again. “That was a big deal for Pansy,” he said proudly.

“That makes it your turn, doesn't it?”

“My turn.” His tone was noncommittal, but he'd shifted his eyes to his lap.

“Um, that Thai girl,” I said, not sure whether he'd hit me.

For a moment I thought he was going to laugh, but he forced the corners of his mouth down and then together, looking like a prince forced to kiss a frog with no princess potential. “I knew I shouldn't have taken you and Lo to that bar,” he said.

“Scene of the crime,” I ventured.

“Oh, some crime. I flirted with her, I tipped her. I figured it was all just business to her.”

I thought it probably had been-jealousy and all-but I didn't want to say so. She'd obviously stoked his ego, and men are such dopes.

“Still,” I said, shrugging.

He nodded. “Yeah, yeah. Okay, no more girls.”

Mentally I asked the next question and retracted it, then asked it out loud. “She the only one?”

“Are you kidding? How much energy do you think I've got with two jobs?”

“So ease off. You can pay the electric bill on one job.”

He thought about it. “Kids are expensive.”

“Pansy could save money if you brought home a dollar a day.”

He smiled, not at me but at Pansy. “She could, you know. Pansy's Chinese to her toes.”

“If you're home more, she could even get a job of her own.” I scalded my tongue and gave up on the coffee. Maybe I'd have it with lunch. Or dinner. “Male chauvinism notwithstanding.”

I put my hand on his shoulder, and he reached up and patted it awkwardly. “I don't want to turn into one of the guys on National Public Radio,” he said.

“You've got miles to go,” I said. “Light-years.”

He sat back. “Assuming I live through tonight.”

That brought me to the problem at hand. I got up and went to the window, looking out as though I expected to see a solution in the street. The window was open, and since the motel had economized on screens, I poured my coffee out through it. It splattered on the asphalt of the parking lot, steaming like the entry way to hell. “Tonight will be okay.”

“Listen to you,” Horace said. “Talk about male chauvinists. I just don't think it's nailed down. God is in the details, you know.”

I turned back to him, feeling my own tension build again. “So find me a nail, Horace. Hell, I'd settle for a thumbtack. The key to something like this is improvisation.”

The upside-down-V eyebrows went sardonic. We were buddies again. He sipped, blinked twice, spat it back into the cup. “A little sententious, don't you think?”

“Horace,” I said, “you're Eleanor's brother. Even if you think I'm willing to get myself killed, you have to know that your life is sacred to me.” I batted my eyelashes at him.

He inflated his cheeks and let the air out with a cynical little pop. “I just hope you know what you're doing. What we're doing.”

That was easy. “I thought we'd settled that, Horace,” I said. I went to him and took the coffee out of his hand and poured it out the window, on top of mine. “I haven't got the faintest idea.”

We were in San Pedro by two-thirty. Except for the fact that my mouth tasted like I'd been sucking on a roll of nickels for a week, I was fine. It also helped if I ignored the rate of my heartbeat and the chill that emanated from the sopping patches on the sides of my shirt, courtesy of the two faucets that had been implanted under my arms while I slept.

Horace, Tran, and I were stewing in my latest rented car-a big one with a copious trunk this time-parked around the corner from the first of the safe houses. Unless Charlie's boys ignored the Harbor Freeway, always a strong possibility at rush hour, they had to pass us. Dexter and Horton were halfway up the next street, about fifty yards past the house. The five Doody Brothers, who were all bigger, or at least wider, than Horton, were two blocks away.

Horace, sitting at the wheel, was revealing himself as a nervous chatterer, reviewing, with the expertise of hindsight, all the reasons he should have known something was wrong the moment Uncle Lo showed up. Tran was emanating a prickly force field from the backseat, where he'd curled himself into a concentrated ball of silence, knees against his chin and arms around his ankles. He hadn't said a word since we'd left the motel. Once in a while he'd nod, as though some mental calculation had just come out right. I made monosyllabic responses to Horace's monologue by way of polite punctuation, but I was actually paying more attention to Tran's nods. Each nod, I figured, represented one less way to get killed.

We sat there for hours.

It began to get dark: twenty past six. People were coming home from work, and every car that passed us brought our heads around as though they were drawn by a single wire. Horace had developed an anxious sigh and practiced it so often that the windows were misting up.