Michael JECKS - Belladonna at Belstone

It was strange how attached he had become to the tall, dark-featured, austere knight. Simon was a country fellow, a cheery, rumbustious man, enthusiastic about his sports and drinks, but cautious of new acquaintances until he had grown to know them very well. The methodical, cool-mannered Baldwin was not the sort of fellow to whom Simon would normally have warmed, yet he had become his closest friend. Perhaps it was simply that both were propelled into their respective positions with little warning, Simon to be a bailiff, Baldwin to his post as Keeper of the King’s Peace, and they each had need of a friend.

Certainly they had always managed to work very well together. Baldwin’s learning was extensive because of his time with the Templars. Conversely, Simon’s knowledge sprang less from learning and more from his background as a steward, which was enhanced by his shrewdness in dealing with people. Simon could normally see in a man’s eye whether he was lying or not. That skill had helped to catapult him to his present position under the Warden of the Stannaries, where he regularly had to test men who tried to get away without paying tax on the tin they had mined, or who tried to persuade him that they had taken over a concession when there was none.

Finding himself at the entrance to the guestroom, Simon climbed the stairs to it, crossing the room and sitting glumly on his bed. It was only this morning, he reminded himself, that he and the other two had gone to attend the services in the middle of the night. Only this morning in the dark, Hugh and Baldwin, Bertrand and he had walked through the cloisters to the church. It had been absolutely freezing. He had been miserable – not so miserable as Hugh, Simon remembered, but then Hugh was always dreadful when he hadn’t had enough sleep. He’d hardly said a word during the morning. Only that stuff about…

Simon’s eyes narrowed as Hugh’s earnest expression came to his mind. The servant had told him about the prostitute in the frater. After all the excitement of the morning, Simon had completely forgotten about it. He wondered how to proceed but then reproved himself. Baldwin would not have sat about wondering what to do, he would have tried to form an idea as to what had happened, and then test his theory. And if he had no theory to test, he would have gone questioning anyone who might have information until he could form one.

Rising, the bailiff walked from the room with a renewed sense of purpose.

The frater was empty bar Jonathan, who sat before the fire, a large pot of wine in his hand. For a moment, Simon stood just inside the doorway, gazing about him, wondering about the doorkeeper and what he actually did for the convent.

In his experience, most doorkeepers and masters of priories were older fellows, men who could not be tempted by the young women within the precinct, men who had seen much of the world and who had chosen to retire from it into the sphere of ecclesiastical life. Their duties were simple: to protect the nuns from the unwanted attentions of people from the outside world. In return they had an easy life, mostly spent sitting in a warm gatehouse, granting visitors the necessary hospitality and avoiding unwanted interruptions to the daily round of services and work.

Simon reminded himself of the working of the convent as he went to the seated man. Jonathan would also be responsible for the receipt of accounts from the reeves and bailiffs, for storing all the goods produced within the priory’s demesne, for maintaining all contact with the secular world outside the gates.

And yet he sat here, ignoring his responsibilities at the gate, and similarly not attending the services or the chapter meeting.

Jonathan heard him and shot a look over his shoulder, spilling a little of his wine. Seeing who it was, he returned to his solitary study of the fire.

“Is the gate unmanned?” Simon asked as he approached.

“There’s a lay brother there. He doesn’t need my help.”

Surprised at the dead tone of his voice, Simon hesitated.

It was Jonathan who looked up and nodded towards an empty bench. “If you wish for ale or wine you’ll have to fetch it yourself.” He watched as Simon walked out to the buttery.

Sighing, Jonathan set his pot on the ground and put his hands over his eyes. He knew he was behaving ridiculously, but couldn’t stop himself. He had always been petulant, and this morning, when he had realised that his feelings for Paul weren’t reciprocated, he had come in here to think and drink until he had forgotten his misery. Later he would go to the church and try to soothe his soul and cleanse his spirit with prayer. After two pints of wine, the bitterness of his frustration had worn away.

There was nothing new about this sense of desperation. He had suffered from it often enough, especially when he was younger. Somehow the desires began to fade a little as he grew older, but that simply meant that there was a poignancy to each fresh encounter. He loved, but knew that his love could never be requited. It was his unending doom – a living hell in which he was forced to deny his own emotions.

The whole world appeared to abhor his kind of lust. His father certainly did, which was why Jonathan had been condemned to a life of prayer and service to God, in order that he could atone for the sin of his perverted attraction, and incidentally remain far away from his family where he could never again embarrass them.

Yet now he had heard that he was not alone. It wasn’t just he who found the male body infinitely more attractive than the female; rumours abounded that the King himself, Edward II, had taken the younger Hugh Despenser to be his lover, just as he had previously taken Piers Gaveston until that man’s execution by the King’s enemies. And that was why Jonathan now needed to sit alone before the fire, ignoring the summons to the chapterhouse, refusing to attend the church services; he knew his life was irrelevant. If he had been born to wealth, like the King, maybe he could have enjoyed the love he craved, but God had seen fit to deny him that solace; to punish him with this fixation. If he was King he could flout the law – but he wasn’t King.

He gazed sombrely at the bailiff who came and sat at his side. “How is your companion?” he asked.

“Sir Baldwin is resting, I thank you. He was fortunate. If he had been standing even a short distance to one side…” Simon held up his hands helplessly. “He was lucky.”

“Some luck,” Jonathan said. He drained his pot and set it at his side, fixing Simon with a steady eye. “So did you come here to comment on an ageing doorkeeper’s laziness, or to chat about your friend’s near-death? Or perhaps there was some more pressing reason for your walking in here?”

“I wanted to ask, er…” Simon met Jonathan’s gaze, and suddenly his resolve faded.

“Whether I was on top of the church and pushed the girl at your friend?”

“She was murdered before she got up there.”

The canon gaped, but then blinked and gave Simon a curious look, his head set to one side like an intrigued terrier. “You’re not so foolish as you can appear, my friend. Let me assist you to another pint of wine. My pot is empty.”

“Here, have some of this,” Simon said, pouring from his own jug.

Jonathan sat back and held his feet to the fire, wiggling his toes. “I had no idea the poor little thing was murdered. She was killed and tossed over the wall like a rock hurled at a besieging army? That’s disgusting.”

“Whoever it was also threw a tile at Baldwin intending to kill him. I want to know where people were when all this happened.”

“It was between Prime and Terce, wasn’t it? You’ll have your work cut out to discover where everyone was at that time. The canons should all sit and read in the cloister, but that only happens in the really well-regulated priories, and I am sure you will have observed that this one…” he waved a hand airily and belched “… this one is hardly on that sort of level. No, here everyone gets on and sees to themselves. Some come and chat here in the frater; others go to the cloisters, it’s true, while some walk in the gardens, thinking.”