Priscilla Royal - Sanctity of Hate

“She suffered more than most, and it is a miracle that both she and the child survived.” Anne shook her head. “All danger has not yet passed. I pray she will continue to gather strength as she is now. After the difficulties of this birth, it is likely she will never bear another child. At least her bleeding stopped, and the afterbirth was soon expelled. Of course she had chills but that is normal.”

“I am grateful to you both,” the prioress said, “as the family must be as well.”

“My efforts were petty, but Mistress Signy assisted most,” Gytha said. She had drunk only a little of her wine before she set the mazer back on the table.

“Indeed!” Eleanor’s smile suggested this was not a surprise.

“I had only asked her to warm a bath for Mistress Belia, before the contractions grew too frequent, and she made sure the required herbs were well-infused. But later she insisted on helping to support the mother and massage her back. As she explained to me, she might not have birthed a child but she was still a daughter of Eve like us all.”

“Our innkeeper is a good woman,” Eleanor said. “I have known few others who understand the meaning of charity so well.”

“Where is Brother Thomas?” the sub-infirmarian asked. “He accompanied us back from the inn, but I have not seen him at the hospital.”

“He has gone to seek Brother Gwydo. Prior Andrew has not seen our lay brother since yesterday but assumes the bees had kept him from the Offices. I must ask him some questions about Kenelm’s murder.”

Gytha paled.

Anne, who had seen the same response, glanced at the prioress. “If you will permit me, I should return to the hospital,” she said. “If I am needed again by Mistress Belia…”

“You must go to her at once.”

Smiling, the nun departed.

Eleanor laid a gentle hand on her maid’s shoulder. “Stay with me, my child. We must talk.”

“I have feared this,” Gytha whispered.

Although she would have preferred to embrace the young woman and offer comfort, Eleanor believed she must put a formal distance between them if she were to seek truth without bias. As she sat in her carved chair and indicated that her maid must stand before her, she felt cruel and hated it. Only rarely had she insisted on such formality between them.

The young woman covered her eyes. “I have sinned, my lady. I have been so wicked that I contaminate all within the priory. Indeed, I have dishonored you by failing to confess what I have done and should have left your service…”

“You shall not leave my side until you marry,” Eleanor replied, then gestured at the abandoned mazer on the table. Her resolve to remain stern was already faltering. “Drink that for strength while you tell me what happened the night you returned from visiting Tostig. After all the years you have served me, and the love I bear you, do you think I would listen without compassion? What occurred between you two?” She deliberately left half of the pair unnamed.

“You have suspected the truth?” Shock briefly drifted across Gytha’s face, then dissipated. “I should never have doubted it. Anytime in the past, when I wished to hide something from you, I knew I would fail and therefore admitted all. This time, however…” Her voice failed and she looked away.

“Bring that stool and sit beside me, my child,” Eleanor sighed, unable to restrain her feelings any longer. “I must hear the tale from you.” Although she doubted that her maid had lain with Gwydo, she found herself wishing that they had. That transgression was arguably within her authority to judge and order penance. But something whispered in her ear that Kenelm’s murder must be involved. The man’s death and Adelard’s tale of the coupling were too coincidental in time and place.

Gytha took a deep breath, looked down at the wine, and swallowed half of it. “After I left my brother, I stopped to visit with Signy and then came back to the priory. Kenelm followed me, but I did not notice him until I was close by the mill gate. He grabbed my arm and forced a kiss.” She shuddered.

The prioress let silence take on the weight of her growing apprehension.

“When I struggled, he clasped a hand over my mouth and dragged me into the forest.”

“You feared rape.”

“With cause, my lady. Just off the road, I tripped. He fell on me and tried to thrust himself between my legs.” She squeezed her eyes shut and took a deep breath. “God heard my prayers. I found a stone with which I struck his head with all my strength. Then I was able to pull myself away.”

“He did not…”

“I remained a virgin but at a deadly price.”

Eleanor reached out and touched her maid’s cheek with sympathy. All this had happened in the forest, she realized. Kenelm had not been on priory grounds.

“He lay still and his head was bleeding,” Gytha continued, “but I was terrified, both of him and what I had done. All reason fled, and I ran deeper into the forest. Then I fell down the embankment. I must have struck my head, for I remember nothing more until I awoke.”

“Do you know how long you were senseless?”

“Nay, but when I recovered, Brother Gwydo was kneeling next to me.”

“What did he do or say?” The prioress studied Gytha’s face for signs of unease but saw none. Had Adelard witnessed just this, his overheated imagination might have concluded they had lain together. Or could he have seen Kenelm wrestling with the maid on the ground instead and, seeing Gwydo a short time later, assumed the two men were one?

Eleanor was perplexed. There was no reason for the baker’s son to conclude it was Gwydo he had seen when it was Kenelm. If there was light enough to see anything, the youth could have told the difference between the short but stocky former soldier and the tall, broad-shouldered stranger.

“Nothing dishonorable, my lady.” Gytha flushed. “He asked if I could stand and assisted me when I struggled. Then he led me to the mill gate.” She pressed her fingers to her eyes. “I think he asked if I could go the rest of the way by myself but I am not sure. I cannot recollect, but I was alone by the time I climbed the stairs to your chambers.”

“You said nothing of this to anyone before now.”

“I did not. The hour was late. You had gone to bed. I lay down and tried to sleep. The memory of all that happened was both too vivid and too much like a dream. I neither had the courage to speak of it, nor did I know how to do so. Then Kenelm’s body was found…”

Not in the forest but in our mill pond, the prioress added to herself. “When Brother Gwydo took you to the priory gate, did you remember if you passed by the spot where Kenelm lay?”

Gytha shook her head.

“Did you tell our lay brother what had happened to you?”

“I doubt it, my lady, for I was ashamed, but I cannot recall.”

And where might the lay brother have been going that would have precluded him from taking her to the hospital or otherwise seeking care? Perhaps he had seen Kenelm attack Gytha and witnessed her flight into the forest. That would excuse his departure from priory grounds if he sought to help her. It would not explain why he had failed to make sure Sister Anne examined her.

“I killed Kenelm, my lady!”

“Yet his body was found in the mill pond, not in the forest where you left him. You must be honest with me, for I shall do all I can to help. Did you and Brother Gwydo drag his body into our priory grounds and push it into the stream?”

Gytha put her hands over her face, fighting to recover her memory. Then she shook her head. “All I recall is walking through the gate, then nothing more until I was climbing the stairs to your chambers. I cannot swear an oath that we did not do such a thing; neither can I say we did.”