Simon Hawke - The Slaying Of The Shrew

“Certainly, milady.”

She put a finger to her lips. “We must be quiet, though,” she said. “My sister’s friend is in this room just ahead and to our right. I think that she is still awake and packing, preparing to depart first thing in the morning. I would not wish her to get the wrong idea, you understand.”

“Of course, milady. Nor would I,” Smythe said, with some alarm, wondering how Elizabeth would react if she came out and saw them together, walking arm-in-arm towards Blanche’s bedroom. He was not sure she would believe his explanation. They walked past her door in silence.

“You are most understanding,” Blanche said, after a moment, smiling at him. “You are a true gentleman.”

“Alas, milady, I fear you have the wrong impression of me,” he replied. “I am not a gentleman, merely a poor and lowly player.”

“Oh, of course! Now I remember where I saw you! We met down by the river gate, when I arrived.”

“Quite so, milady. I was among the Roman senators who were assigned to greet the guests.”

“I remember. You looked much better in your toga than did any of the others.”

“That is kind of you to say, milady.”

Her face clouded over. “ ‘Twas when we all thought Catherine was dead,” she said. “And then she turned out not to have been dead at all, only to be killed in her own tomb… how horrible! Oh, no, I must not think of it! I must think of something else, or I shall be quite undone. Tell me how it is to be a player.”

“How it is to be a player?” Smythe repeated, not quite prepared for the question. “Ah. Well…’tis not that I possess a great deal of experience, milady. I am still quite new at it. But I am fortunate, indeed, to have found a position with the Queen’s Men, who are the finest players in the land. ‘Tis something I have dreamed of doing since I was but a boy.”

“I thought that young boys were permitted to apprentice with the players,” she said, “so that they might play the female roles before their voices change. Did you not do that?”

“Regretably, milady, my father did not approve of my becoming a player. He thought ‘twas no fit occupation for a gentleman.”

“Oh! So then you are a gentleman!”

“My father was a gentleman, milady. But he aspired to rise higher and become a knight, and in his efforts to pursue that lofty goal, he bankrupted himself and left me with nothing to inherit. Thus, I cannot claim to be a gentleman. I am but a simple farrier, a smith, an ostler, and now a player, though not, I fear, a very good one, though I do my humble best.”

“Humility in any man is a most becoming trait,” she said, with a smile. “And I can understand your story perhaps better than you know.” They had reached her bedroom and she opened up the door as she spoke and went inside, but without releasing his arm, so that he was forced to enter with her. “Your father sounds very much like mine,” she said, letting go his arm and closing the door behind them. “He is a most ambitious man. Appearances mean everything to him.” She sounded bitter. “He gives more credence to what other people think than he does to the concerns of his own family. He drove my mother to an early grave with his obsessions. A proper lady does this, and a proper lady does that, and a proper lady would never do this, that, and the other. Tis enough to drive one mad.”

As she spoke, as if without thinking, she slipped off her shoes and began unfastening her laces. For a moment, Smythe was too startled to speak, and then he could not quite find a way in which to get a word in edgewise.

“I can imagine how very frustrating it must have been for you, wanting so to be a player and never being allowed to pursue your heart’s desire!” Blanche continued. “Always being told what a proper gentleman must or must not do! There are times, I am quite sure, when you thought that you might scream! Oh, how well I know that feeling. I understand, you see. I do. The two of us are very much alike.”

She had now loosened her bodice and unlaced and removed the first of her petticoats, stepping out of it and letting it drop onto the floor. He was speechless, riveted to the spot. He could not believe that she was actually undressing in front of him. He looked around to see if there were any servants, but the two of them were quite alone. As she removed her second petticoat, Smythe saw that she was not wearing a farthingale, but a padded roll instead, which gave her skirts a softer drape and was probably more comfortable, especially when lying in a garden or upon a floor.

He swallowed hard. Blanche Middleton was a very beautiful young woman and she was exposing more of her beauty by the moment. It occurred to him that she fully intended to bed him, and it also occurred to him that he very much wanted to let her. But he could not go through with it.

“Milady, please, forgive me…” He said, interrupting her and holding out his hand in a staying motion. “This must stop now. Truly. I… I really must leave now. Please.” He began to back away, toward the door.

She stopped and gazed at him, eyes wide. “Must you?” she said, softly.

His throat suddenly felt very dry. “In truth, I do not wish to,” he replied, “but I must. Your beauty makes my heart race, but the truth is that I love another and could not bear to be unfaithful to her.”

He reached the door and reached out behind him to open it. “Tuck, wait,” she said, coming toward him. “Milady, please…” He opened the door and stepped back into the corridor.

She followed him, and came up close, and put her hands upon his chest. “You are a gentleman,” she whispered. “The first true gentleman that I have met. And whoever she may be, I envy her.” She rose up on her tiptoes and kissed him softy and lingeringly on the lips. “Good night, sweet Tuck.” She smiled, stepped back inside, and shut the door.

For a moment, Tuck just stood there, his heart pounding, and then he heard the unmistakable sound of another door being shut behind him. He turned, quickly, but the corridor was empty now. He felt a knot form in his stomach as Blanche’s words came back to him… “My sister’s friend is in this room just ahead and to our right. I think that she is still awake and packing, preparing to depart first thing in the morning. I would not wish her to get the wrong idea…”

Elizabeth! Oh, God, he thought. What could she have seen? He had been coming out of Blanche’s bedroom and she had followed him out into the corridor, barefoot and dressed in nothing but her undergarments, and she had kissed him on the lips and said good night…

He closed his eyes. She would never believe him if he told her what had truly happened. And for that matter, why should she? Guiltily, he realized that it had taken every ounce of willpower he had possessed to leave that room. He felt ashamed to admit it to himself, but he had wanted Blanche. And he could easily have had her. However, unlike every other male who came near her, he had managed to resist his baser urges. But would Elizabeth believe him?

He started to head down the corridor, toward her room, intent upon doing everything he could to convince her that he had not bedded Blanche, but suddenly he stopped.

What if it had not been Elizabeth, after all? What if the sound he had heard had merely been one of the other guests, going in to sleep after a late night? Whoever it was might not even have seen anything. It had only been an instant, after all. A mere moment. If he went to Elizabeth now, and protested his innocence, and it turned out that it had not been her, and she had not seen anything at all, then it would only make things worse.

Better to wait, he thought. After all, he had nothing to feel guilty for. He had not actually done anything wrong. He had merely escorted a lady back up to her room, and then had watched her strip down to her undergarments, said good night, and left. Well, she kissed him, but that was all, only a kiss, and a chaste one, at that. Hell, he thought, if she had seen only that much, Elizabeth would be furious. And he would know soon enough if she had seen him. It would be best to wait until he knew for certain. He took a deep breath, exhaled heavily, and headed for the stairs.