Liza Marklund - The Bomber

The thought that my beloved perhaps does deserve it fills me with dread and insecurity.

Sunday has always been the tabloids' day of big sales. People have both the time and the inclination to read something reasonably undemanding, and they are relaxed enough to do crossword puzzles and try out various quizzes on one another. For years, most Sunday papers have also invested in bulky supplements with extra reading. The TS, Tidningsstatistik, the body that authenticates and publishes newspaper publication figures in Sweden, therefore separates the Sunday edition from the rest of the week's sales when compiling the statistics.

Nothing ever sells as much as a really good piece of news, however. If, in addition, it happens on a Saturday, there's potential for huge sales. That this was the case this Sunday, Anders Schyman immediately saw when he had in his hands the tabloids that were delivered to his house in the fashionable leafy suburb of Saltsjöbaden. He brought the papers with him to the breakfast table, where his wife was pouring out the coffee.

"Looking good?" his wife asked but only got a grunt in reply from the editor-in-chief. This was the magic moment of the day. His nerves were taut and he focused completely on the papers, putting his and the rival's on the breakfast table, comparing the two front pages. Jansson had done it again, he noted and smiled. Both papers had gone for the terrorist angle, but Kvällspressen had a scoop with the death threat against the Managing Director Christina Furhage. Kvällspressen had a better lead story, better celebs in the masthead, and a more dramatic picture of the stadium. He smiled even wider and relaxed.

"Fine," he said to his wife and reached for the coffee. "Very good, actually."

The cartoon voices from the children's morning TV were the first thing Annika heard. The high-pitched howls and special effects leaked in under the bedroom door. She put the pillow over her head to block out the noise. This was one of the few drawbacks of having children: The affected C-movie actors who supplied the Swedish voices to Darkwing Duck were more than she could take on a Sunday morning. Thomas as usual didn't notice. He slept on with his half of the duvet crumpled up between his legs.

She lay still for a moment to see how she was feeling. She was tired, and the pain in her legs wasn't completely gone. She immediately started thinking about the Bomber and realized she must have been dreaming about the attack. It was always like that when a big story broke- she would enter a long tunnel and wouldn't appear again until after the story was finished with. Sometimes she had to force herself to stop and breathe, both for her own and the kids' sake. Thomas didn't like it when she became swallowed up by her work.

"It's just a job," he would say. "You're always writing as if it were a matter of life and death."

But it almost always was, Annika mused, at least in her particular line of work.

She sighed, tossed the pillow and the duvet to the side, and got up. She stood there swaying for a moment, more tired than she'd thought at first. The woman reflected in the window looked a hundred years old. She let out another sigh and walked out into the kitchen.

The kids had already eaten. The plates were still on the table, standing in pools of various spilled dairy products. Nowadays, Kalle could take out yogurt and cereals himself. After burning himself on the toaster, he had stopped serving Ellen toasted rye bread with peanut butter and jam, which otherwise was a big favorite.

She put the kettle on and went in to the children. The cries of joy rose to meet her before she was through the door.

"Mommy!"

Four hungry arms and eyes rushed toward her, wet mouths kissing and bubbling and hugging and assuring her, "Mommy, Mommy, we've missed you so much! Mommy, where were you all day yesterday? Were you working all day, Mommy? You didn't come home, Mommy, we were already in bed…"

She held them both in her arms, squatting in the doorway to the TV room.

"We got a new film yesterday, Mommy. You're Crazy, Mardie! it's called. It was really scary, the horrible man hit Mia. Do you want to see my drawing, Mommy? It's for you!"

They wriggled free from her hold and ran off in different directions. Kalle came back first, with the cover for the film based on Astrid Lindgren's book about her childhood friend.

"The head teacher was really horrible. He spanked Mia for taking his wallet," Kalle said earnestly.

"I know, that was really bad of him," Annika said, stroking the boy's hair. "It was like that at school in the past. Terrible, isn't it?"

"Is it like that at school now?" he asked with concern.

"No, not anymore," Annika said and kissed him on the cheek. "No one could ever hurt my little boy."

A terrific howl came out of the children's room, "My drawing's gone. Kalle has taken it!"

The boy stiffened.

"I have not!" he shouted back. "You've lost it yourself. You did!"

The howl in the background turned into loud crying. "It's Kalle. He took my drawing!"

"Little brat! I never did!"

Annika put the boy down, stood up, and took him by the hand.

"That's enough now," she said firmly. "Come on, let's go and look for the drawing. It's probably somewhere on the desk. And don't call your sister a brat. I don't want to hear that word."

"Brat! Brat!" Kalle yelled.

The loud crying became a howl again. "Mommy, Kalle's being horrid! He's calling me a brat!"

"Be quiet now, both of you!" Annika said, raising her voice. "You're waking Daddy up."

As she entered the room with the boy, Ellen's clenched fist was in the air to hit her brother. Annika caught it before it landed, feeling her patience giving out.

"Stop it now!" she shouted. "Stop it, both of you!"

"What's the row?" Thomas was standing in the bedroom doorway. "Christ, can't I have one single morning of sleep?"

"See, you've woken Daddy up," Annika shouted.

"You're louder than the two of them together," Thomas said and slammed the door shut.

Annika felt the tears well up again. Damn, damn, damn. Why didn't she ever learn? She sank to the floor, heavy as a rock.

"Mommy. Are you sad, Mommy?"

"No, I'm not sad. I'm just a bit out of sorts. It's because I worked so late yesterday." She forced a smile and reached out for the two of them. Kalle looked at her earnestly.

"You mustn't work so much," he said. "You get too tired."

She gave him a hug. "You're so wise," she said. "Shall we look for that drawing now?"

It had fallen behind the radiator. Annika blew away the dust and expressed her admiration gushingly. Ellen beamed with delight.

"I'll put it up on the wall in the bedroom. But Daddy has to wake up before I do that."

The kettle was boiling away in the kitchen; half of it was steam on the windows. She put more water in and opened the window slightly to get rid of the mist.

"Do you want more breakfast?"

They did, and now they had toasted rye bread with butter. Their twitter rose and fell while Annika ploughed through the morning papers and listened to the radio news. There was nothing new in the papers, but the radio quoted both of the tabloids: her report about the death threat against Furhage, as well as the competition's interview with IOC president Samaranch. Oh well, Annika thought to herself, they beat us with Lausanne. Too bad, but that was not her headache.

She had another piece of rye bread.

Helena Starke unlocked the door and switched off the alarm. Occasionally, when she got to the Olympic Secretariat the alarm was disarmed: The careless bastard who had left last the evening before would have forgotten to switch it on. This time she knew it had been done properly. She was last to leave the night before, or rather, early this morning.